Hey all. Well, the good news is I've been sober for three weeks, three days. Still going strong, even though it's been hard.
The bad news is that I got some blood results back that indicate I'm diabetic. :\ My glucose was high but my doctor (delightful person *rolls eyes* He flits in, gives me this news, then flits out with a smile, leaving me sitting there) needs to do a recheck to see if it comes down. So, I have three weeks of a potential diagnosis hanging over my head. Naturally, I want a drink. Because that wouldn't be self destructive at all, right? *wink wink*
I keep telling myself that even if this is something I have to deal with that I'll manage it. It's not like I just got diagnosed with some terminal illness, so I feel bad that I'm so freaked out. People get worse news than this every day. But here I am, nervous and frightened and guilty because I know damn well that all my drinking over all these years has adversely effected my health. Now my family has to be worried right alongside with me. And I did it all to myself. I know that's dangerous thinking and I'm going to try to stop those thoughts from over taking me.
At any rate, if you could send me some good thoughts to get me through this time without resorting to falling back in to old habits I'd be grateful.
I hope all are well on these boards and enjoying a peaceful day.
Good for you on 3 weeks and 3 days, GG.
Remember, your sobriety will HELP you handle any problems that come up. A drink will make any problems WORSE.
You seem kind of calm about the issue and that is good. Wait to see what develops and deal with it. Many others have walked the path you are on--sober.
Try not to blame yourself for a disease you cannot control. Stay in the day, the present. You will have a good outcome. You deserve it.
If it turns out that you have diabetes, it's not the end of the world ... my oldest son has been diabetic for most his life, he's 41 ... he first went on injections twice a day for about 25 years, then with new medicines coming around, he has been able to get off the shots and now only takes a few pills a day ... there are a few diet 'no-nos' but other than that, he's just fine ...
SO ... there's really noth'n to worry about as long as you don't use it as an excuse to drink, which as Pickle already said, only makes things worse, never better ...
Hey, after getting a biopsy of my prostate last year, I got news I had cancer too far advanced for surgery, so, they put me through radiation and hormone treatments ... and I'm still kick'n ... in fact, the Dr.s office called today to tell me my PSA test, from last week, came back at .01 ... which is great, cause it was 9.5(real bad) ...
So, it looks like I'll be around a little longer, so I can aggravate the hell out of Pickle when I get the chance, LOL ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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GG, that's awesome, over 3 weeks. It really is. And it gets better. In a little time, you won't even believe how good you feel, and, if you stay away from the sugar (I know, it's fricken hard), your body can repair itself, and you might not even need any medicine for diabetes. There's great stories about people who changed their diet a little, started some exercise, and their diabetes went away. I think it depends on how bad you've got it. If your body is just now starting to become diabetic, you can turn it around. I guess you gotta listen to your doctor, but remember, a lot (not all) of doctors are drug dealers. (Actually, they're all drug dealers when you think about it. Most of them do it for the health of their patient, others, not so much.)
excessive alcohol intake can lead to diabetes. But, don't kick yourself about it. If you come out of active alcoholism with nothing more than diabetes, consider yourself lucky. Alcohol has caused way worse problems for some people than that.
Keep taking it one day at a time (ODAT), don't look back, your life is about to get WAY better.
