Hey, how's it going, Hope? I'm good. I'm trying to finish this welding job, I've got another 4 or 5 days on it, already been working on it for 3 months. Then, I'm gonna relax for a couple of weeks, AND QUIT SMOKING! These friggin things are killing me. I'm paying the tobacco companies to kill myself. It's stupid. I've gotta get this job done, then I'm quitting. For good. for real this time.
I live in a motorhome. (kind of like Chris Farley. "I live in a van, DOWN BY THE RIVER!). Anyway, I stay on this woman's property, it's beautiful, down here in what is called the Redlands, which is an agricultural area down by Homestead, Florida, on the mainland, right before you get to the Florida Keys. Anyway, it's awesome here, I live on 3 acres, nice and quiet (except at night, when I crank up my electric guitar). But the nice lady who rents me my space, well, she's a smoker and a big drinker. (Alcoholic). The drinking doesn't bother me one bit, if anything, it reminds me of how lucky I am to have escaped the trap. But when I try to quit smoking, it's just too easy to cave in to the urge, and bum a smoke from her. Next thing ya know, I'm at the store buying a pack.
A couple of weeks ago, when I tried to quit, she had left for vacation for 5 days. And I did good, made it 4 days without a cigarette, but when she came back home, I caved into an urge, and stole a smoke from her when she wasn't looking. And then I was right back to smoking again.
i can do it. And I'm going to this time. For sure.
Hi Baba Louie! Great to hear from you!!! Glad you are okay. That is amazing you can be around someone who is drinking like that and it doesn't bother you. I sure can't.
Yep. Still off the cigarettes. Today is 6 weeks off them. I feel so much better, and you will too once you get off them. Tip--if you buy anymore, buy a kind you cannot stand. This may make you smoke less and wean off of them that way. Another thing.... We had a vapor cig and I don't need that anymore. Someone told me I was still "smoking" so I wasn't really off the cigarettes. Well, I haven't seen any "smoking" vapor ones yet. It really helped.
And I have been around a smoker a couple of times on the way to somewhere since and it was not hard for me. Now, if I was with someone for any length of time I would be like you. So I choose not to be around smokers that long. You have it tough, because it sounds like you are around the woman who rents to you right much.
Good luck with finishing up your job and lucky you in a motor home on that nice property. That sounds like a great way to live and you can change your "setting" anytime.
Yes, you are strong. I don't have to tell you how hard it is to quit alcohol. You know. And you quit the smoking, too. That can be just as hard. In some ways, it's harder then quitting alcohol, cause alcohol pretty much ruins your life, so the bad effects are felt sooner. The smoking effects (cancer), just hit you out of nowhere one day. The smoking isn't really ruining your everyday life, at least not as bad as alcohol, anyway. It's not like smoking gets you in trouble, DUI, fights, lost job, lost family and friends. So the urgency to quit isn't there like it is with alcohol. But make no mistake, those things are every bit as bad for you.
so, you ARE strong, and you should be proud of yourself, there's nothing wrong with being a little proud about changing your life for the better. Don't sell yourself short. You have eliminated 2 things in your life that are very difficult to overcome.
Oh, Baba Louie....I am going to get all teary eyed with that one.
I couldn't figure out why I had such a hard time giving up the cigs and I have talked to other AA'ers who said what I thought...just that it was hard. You put it all out there in words which I should have come up with myself, just wasn't able to. Thanks for that.
Also thank you for the encouragement. I also am trying to give up toxic people in my life as well as toxic things, while trying not to be "toxic" myself. Now that is a really hard thing to do!
I believe in myself. I don't think I'm better than anybody else...but I think I am awesome. As a matter of fact, I know I am. Im not stuck up, or hung up on myself, but when I'm sober, yeah, I'm a pretty awesome person. If I drink, all that awesomeness turns to shit. And I like being awesome. So I don't drink.
i read about the debates, but I don't watch TV. At all. I don't think politics is a good subject to bring up here, but, I will say if Donald Trump becomes president, I'm going to do 1 of 2 things: either leave the country, or get drunk. That guy is a very egotistical maniac, He's always bragging about how rich he is. And he just thinks he's the bomb. He is the the anti-awesome. His latest brag fest was about how he can't believe how Megan Kelly was picking on him, and that he should be bowed down to because he brought Fox their "biggest ratings". Fuck that piece of shit. Everything that comes out of his mouth is a big brag fest. "I've got so much money, I buy politicians", that kind of shit. If the American people are that stupid and shallow to elect this guy, the whole world will be laughing at us. And so will I. Either drunk, or sober, in another country.
To the moderator: if you don't want to put this post up, I totally understand. Combination of politics and foul language is not really cool on here. Prolly should have just PMed Hopefulone this response.
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And it's a shame that people in this country worship money and rich people and celebrities, like they're Gods or something. None of those types of people are somebody that I'm going to use as my "higher power". But lots of Americans do. Sad.
I don't have to be drunk, or in a drinking state of mind, to say bad things about Donald Trump. He's the kind of guy that makes me wonder why God would bestow riches upon such an asshole. That guy is everything that is wrong.
You know, when I was younger, I would make jokes about girls being on their knees, just like he did to that girl on his dumb TV show. When I was like, 16. That is his mentality. 16.
