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hopefulone


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Step One

"We admitted we were powerless over alcohol--that our lives had become unmanageable."

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I thought I could handle the alcohol until the amount got to be so much then I started to wonder. Didn't stop me from drinking though. Then I wasn't able to work for all the drinking, that didn't stop me. Chewed out my mom and boyfriend. Also my ex and my daughter. It was everyone's fault but not mine. Kept drinking. Credit got ruined because I wasn't making much money to pay the bills. Went to court a couple of times because of that. Didn't stop drinking though. Got a DUI and went to jail. That sucked. Everyone could see me using the toilet if they looked through that window on the door. I had cotton mouth something fierce and was begging police men and woman who went by that window in the door to get me some water. None did. They ignored me. Damn cotton mouth. It really made that s**t on a shingle they served on a "biscuit" even harder to swallow. Got out and in no time kept drinking. Went to jail again...guess I missed their biscuits and "gravy". Stuff kept happening, I kept drinking. I did stuff while drunk I cannot put on this or any site. What I can remember I did anyway.

I am sober now. Finally did admit that I was powerless over alcohol. Finally did admit that my life had become unmanageable.

Finally.

 

Stay safe and sober, dear people.

 

 



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Repeat the step one tomorrow hopeful one...this works when you work it.  Don't look back nothing great to remember back then...that I know.   smile



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I have 2+ years of sobriety under my belt, Jerry. Just sharing my experience with newcomers. I do have to say Step One a lot regardless of that, though. And I cannot forget the past, because if I do, I am destined to repeat it...that I know.



-- Edited by hopefulone on Friday 24th of July 2015 09:47:04 AM

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None of us can afford to forget our past. It's too expensive to repeat. The 2 people who sat next to me @ my 1st meeting are dead. My 3 close childhood friends are also dead, without a chance for recovery. This disease is cunning, baffling powerful. At least 4 of my college friends are dead.

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Yeah, Alcohol turned me into an idiot ... almost lost everything ... including my family and life ... my life was most certainly 'unmanageable' ...



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I was finally able to admit that alcohol is a problem for me in just the last few weeks

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That is an important admission. It was hard for me to make it for myself. I really didn't want to do it. But I did admit I was an alcoholic and recovery started for me.

Welcome to this discussion forum, lashqueen. Have you gone to any AA meetings yet?



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Good for you being able to admit that, lashqueen. I hope you will keep us posted how you are doing. We care.

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I went to a couple meetings a few years ago. This time I have not gone to any due to transportation issues. But I'm finally willing to admit that its an issue. I've been trying to stop for 2 months now and have had a streak of 10 days without a drink. Thank you for your support. Admitting has been a huge step forward.

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10 days is awesome and good for you for not giving up. You can go to aa.org and look up meetings in your area to see if there are any new ones since you went before. It is likely since it has been a few years and maybe there is one within walking distance. Also, you can do a search to look up your local Intergroup and call that number on their site and ask whoever answers the phone about getting rides. You see, in our Intergroup they have a ride list of names/phone numbers of members willing to give rides to other folks.
Also, someone mentioned about meetings --maybe on this site? that is a thought.
So if that is why you are not able to make meetings, hopefully at least one of the ideas above will help you. When you are able to get to a meeting put the word out that you are in need of a ride and other same sex members should be happy to give you one.
Keep up the awesome work.

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hopefulone wrote:

10 days is awesome and good for you for not giving up. You can go to aa.org and look up meetings in your area to see if there are any new ones since you went before. It is likely since it has been a few years and maybe there is one within walking distance. Also, you can do a search to look up your local Intergroup and call that number on their site and ask whoever answers the phone about getting rides. You see, in our Intergroup they have a ride list of names/phone numbers of members willing to give rides to other folks.
Also, someone mentioned about meetings --maybe on this site? that is a thought.
So if that is why you are not able to make meetings, hopefully at least one of the ideas above will help you. When you are able to get to a meeting put the word out that you are in need of a ride and other same sex members should be happy to give you one.
Keep up the awesome work.

 Thank you so much!



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LQ, you are doing well to get 10 days sober. Keep up the good work.

If transportation is still a problem you can consider online AA meetings. One site that holds online meetings is at:
http://aaonline.net

There are 4 meetings a day there. Maybe give one a try. Next one is in 30 minutes, then at 9:30 PM.

Unfortunately, we haven't had meetings on this site in over two years. We just haven't taken down the meeting schedule on the home page.

 



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Thank you!

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