Early this morning, I woke up and fixed my coffee. After it brewed (I am impatient when it comes to my morning coffee, so actually I pull out the carafe while it is still brewing :), I added my cream and sugar and went on the back patio and sat down. I drank a few sips and started my morning.....

I prayed to my Higher Power...."Thank you for helping me stay sober yesterday. Please keep me sober today."

...My day starts not with my coffee, it starts with my prayer and meditation time. Right after that prayer, I feel safe, I feel protected against picking up a drink.

It took me only a short time after I got sober 'this time round' to start saying that prayer. I heard another AA'er share that is what he has prayed every morning throughout his sobriety. It was a bit difficult for me at first as I didn't have a HP at the time....I had lost all my faith in the God of my understanding. He had "let me down" too many times. Where was He when the bad stuff started happening in my life? What use was praying when I had thought there was either no God or that He had my number blocked? Despite these thoughts, I mustered up the courage to start saying this prayer thinking "What could it hurt?" I didn't know who in the heck I was praying to, I just did it. I remember praying "Can you hear me now?" sometimes or asking "Are you listening to me?".  I guess you could say I tried to have "blind faith". Sure couldn't see the "fella" just hoped with all my heart that He was there and was hearing my prayers, if He was. (And that was a big "if" back then.)

I feel that by praying this simple prayer every single day that it has helped me stay sober. I do pray for other things and remember to give thanks for blessings as well as acceptance of things beyond my control. I pray for His will--not mine--every day, several times a day when that ole self will starts up (and it certainly does).  Now, my faith is not blind. I am more at peace. I am more serene. These are things I never had for any length of time and especially when I was drinking. These are things I thought I had to have a dozen or more drinks to obtain.

Now I am thoroughly convinced that God never let me down like I once believed--He just let me find my own way when I was determined to run my life the way "I" thought fit. 

And I know that He was with me all along as he is now and He does hear me and is keeping me sober "One day at a time."