We are all miracles in progress. I look forward to tomorrow because of today. Today, I was sober and this one day is as important and essential as my ten years of sobriety.
Thinking that first drink through has always been a powerful force in my continued sobriety.
I visit this site every so often, always encouraged by the exchanges I see. Our AA family cannot have lingering negativity for so many reasons.
I lost a brother to this disease. He wrecked his car on 3/09/03 after being sober for about ten years. He was having marital discord and ended up going out a few times, just drinking beers and driving up and down mountainous roads.
I got the 5am phone call and had to break the news to my parents that their son, my brother was dead. The most awful thing I have had to do in this life so far. I hope I never have to anything like that ever again.
Life being life, we can never know what will happen, minute by minute, hour, by hour, day by day, month by month and so forth.
I've been blessed with a loving wife and loving children. I would not have them if I had continued my drinking career. I am satisfied by my profession. Things are so much better today than when I was drinking.
I didn't think I could function without drinking. What would others think, or say, or do?! How could I go to a sporting event without drinking?! Or a meal without a drink or two or twenty?!
Anywho, I did it one day at a time. At first it felt like one minute at a time.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
This prayer rings in my head daily and rang in my head ten years ago.
I try to be an example to some of my friends who may or may not be members of our alcoholic family. I am currently seeing a friend through a divorce, which is in part because of his drinking.
I am amazed at what this disease is able to do to us. In my drinking career I was able to convince myself that I really didn't have a problem for years. That's the joke in many ways. The people who know and
love us know that we are most likely alcoholics, but until we admit it to ourselves and decide to change our behavior nothing new happens. I was stuck for years. That's insanity, trying to do the same thing over and over again,
and expect different results. I wasn't going to black out again. I wasn't going to say and do things that I would be mortified about later. I wasn't going to loose control of my bladder again. All these things which occurred over and over
again for so many years. How the heck was it ever going to change?! Well, it changed because of places like this and people like you who I'm proud to call family.
We are miracles, day by day, and I hope to come around more often here.
Thanks for reading. Thanks for my ten years a couple days back!!
Thanks all, I do miss all the positive folks here!!
I have to set some time aside, and come here to join in the MIP.
It is a good feeling to help others and in turn help ourselves.
Yes it is good to "give it away" and congratulations on the anniversary...mine was on the 8th and I am as grateful as you are. With the gratitude I fuel the service and watch the program grow and return to me as promised. Hope to hear from you more often.
Funny stuff, Feb, being the month of best peoples sobriety date......gotta love the sense of humor!!
Humor has always been a way to decompress in my life!!
It also got me out of lots of trouble!!
Humor is a gratitude list item for me too. When I learned to not take myself soooo seriously and to laugh as my ego striving I started to get real. February babies are nice kids.