Hi Folks just checking in to give you a weekly update of sorts, hope thats OK with you guys? 2 weeks since not a drop, been to the pub tonight to meet a few friends, just still Orange juice. Quite comfortable with others drinking around me, no great "thirst". Reality is starting to hit as to what I`m now facing and irrespective of help available I`m starting to realise that it is all down to me to change, I got myself into the mess, I`ll get myself out of it.
Did anyone else find that they are really up for the challenge for the first couple of weeks and then it`s as though an anti-climax hits you as you realise just how daunting it is to stop a habit of the past 10 or so years?
I`ve put away the target of 30 days, confident I`ll reach it, but I think it may be dangerous to approach it with some kind of milestone attitude, it`ll just be day 30 of the many many difficult days ahead.
I`ve felt a bit annoyed with myself over the last day or two for having created a situation where I honestly think I`ll never be able to enjoy alcohol responsibly/socially again
......you realise just how daunting it is to stop a habit of the past 10 or so years? ............. I`ve felt a bit annoyed with myself over the last day or two for having created a situation where I honestly think I`ll never be able to enjoy alcohol responsibly/socially again
Glad to hear you're doing well. No way could I go hang out in a bar and not drink....
For me, drinking is an illness, I'm an alcoholic, so just "stopping a habit" won't help me recover and without recovery, I'm sure my history would repeat itself. Alcohol is just a symptom....
2nd, sure, I've felt annoyed. Mad as HELL really, cuz this old girl LOVES to drink!! Certainly would not have spent 20+ years doing something I didn't love! But, again, I'm an alcoholic. So if you ever figure out how to turn a pickle back into a cucumber, I sure hope I'll be the first person you share your secret with.....
Thanks for posting, it helped me more than you could ever know.
Love and Hugs.
God, grant me the gift of sobriety, just for tonight.
-- Edited by Doll at 21:11, 2006-02-09
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hi, Paul,,, I'm glad you're checking in. It's good to see that things are going okay. Yeah, there've been a couple of things in my life that I've committed to and then kind of felt umm 'what have I gotten myself into here?" ... but sobriety is a good thing, and you'll be even gladder later,, when you see the difference more between what happens to sober you, and drinking them. Some of them will sober up too though. And, hey... I would go ahead and celebrate the 30 days. Not all of the days ahead will be so difficult.. you know.. life has ups and downs. We make it through with our Higher Power a day at a time. Have you started meetings? the Steps?
amanda
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Good to hear things are going OK with you, 2 weeks is a big step! Keep it up, and forget about your 30 day milestone, just live through day 15 without drinking, and someday it will be day 30. or 40, or whatever.
pffff, what a challenge, going to your 'normal' bar, and just not drink your usual!!
Hey Pauly, Today is the most important day...don't drink , don't think about tomorrow. I can do anything for the next 24 hours, that would seem impossible if I thought about it for the long-haul. It's not a death sentence, it's a new way to live life free from a bondage.
