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betterthanyesterday52


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I kept waiting for something bigger, something more profound, something that I could hitch myself to and be carried away once and for all to the heaven-on-earth that I deserved. I kept struggling for control, which was really a demand for everything I wanted--peace, happiness, love, perfection--all at once, right now, and for all time. I wanted life to be perfect, always. And when it wasn't, which was most of the time, I got really anxious, and when I got anxious, I started thinking about how good it would feel to get high again.
William C. Moyers

 

 

I am not sure if this "high" Moyers speaks about is alcohol or drugs. Although the feelings he expresses, I felt. I too kept waiting and hoping for something to happen really big in my life because I felt like I was going through so many bad things in my life and I deserved to be happy for a change. I felt out of control and I yearned to regain control. I wanted everything to be perfect in my imperfect world. And that world was very small and one I created in my mind and with my negative thinking. It was the kind of thinking which made me extremely depressed and anxious and it was this kind of mindset which caused me to believe that the only way I could regain control and escape from it was by drinking. For a while, the drinking did block out some of the pain. I thought it was a "quick fix" to my problems. It always made them worse, however, and eventually made me realize that the temporary "high" I got from drinking was not worth the price I paid for trying to find a "quick fix" to my problems. I found the answer to getting control and peace back in my life was by stopping the drinking and attending AA meetings, getting a sponsor and working the steps. It is by taking "one day at a time" and doing the best I can to make the most out of the rest of my life and striving for "progress and not (expecting) perfection". And the happiness and love which I have been missing for years is coming back into my life as I try to help other recovering alcoholics.

bty



-- Edited by betterthanyesterday52 on Thursday 20th of March 2014 08:52:08 AM



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Pythonpappy


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The way I see it, is that I have never earned or deserved the happiness I sought ... I have, however, learned that it can and does come to me by 'the Grace of God' as I work the program of AA ... The AA program has taught me the true values of life ... it has taught me the real core values in life itself, whether in my life or others ...

And furthermore, I don't think I ever knew what 'true happiness' ever was, til now ... ... ... God Bless the AA way of life and thanks to God for Bill Wilson & Dr. Bob, through whom God was speaking to me and others ... ... ... 

 

Pappy



-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Thursday 20th of March 2014 09:29:06 AM

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True Happiness is....Waking up in the morning ...and saying..

 

"I remember your name"!!  :)

 

 



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I remember it well.  It was the feeling I had when I had completed Step Nine.  I'd never felt anything like it before -- it was like God was standing with me and He had just opened up the Heavens for me.....it was a spiritual awakening.  I wondered....is this what Heaven is like?

Mike D.



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