I am laid low with the flu and really it is the only really bad bout of ill health I have had since my HP got me sober 4 years ago. It is giving me time to reflect and slow down and realise I can be done without, easily. I have to cancel all my appointments as I believe in self care today and the little things I was worried about seem so inconsequential. I have all I need. I know how to make good decisions and all those extra meetings are now in the bank and for that I am grateful.
I choose today to see what my HP is trying to reveal to me and how he shows me how much my life has radically improved. Yes my accounts are now late, its ok, yes I am going to be down money as I cant get to work, its ok, I've got some savings,
Yes it shows me I can delegate a task tomorrow, without half killing myself, will send off work in the morning and warn them now tonight. Spoke to a member today who got sober the same time, she's flattened with an ear infection, we had such a laugh. the language was choice I'm afraid as I've been making a real effort with that. She sounded like I felt and she told me how she had cancelled all, adore her as a friend, could tell her how much I loved her and that we could talk tomorrow and help each other with our difficulties.
I started playing the tape if I was still drinking, I had about 120 days like this annually before getting into AA, Oh my God, that is all I can say. Now I have a lovely heating system in my house, a great shower, ok I got a leak coming into the kitchen but it can get fixed. Significant others are still in my life willing to come home a bit early from work to look after me, for this I am truly grateful.
Get better soon Maire rua, ... me and me wife both had that flu stuff earlier this year, not fun, huh? ... ... ... after a few days, we both thought, wow, we're go'n to live after all ... 'keep on truck'n' ... it'll be over 'for you know it ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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Thanks, not got the stage where I think I'm going to live, terrible pain in my ribs, off to doc tomorrow morning, cancelled all appointments, cruelty personified
Sure is, turns out I'm allergic to paracetemol, this made the symptoms so much worse, pain in ribs and sweating copiously and then some, now on Ibrufen, like a spring chicken, HP trying to show me how to slow down and prioritise, and literally clean house, skip ordering tomorrow, accounts to be sorted too. Thanks for all your good wishes and specially for the Master physician healing light.
