I am working harder and making more money to be able to pay bills. This is something which is one of the things recovery has done for me, as I was not been able to work consistently enough when I was drinking--if at all--to become financially independent. I reached the point where I thought I was a complete loser, incapable of making much money at all, and I would probably eventually be homeless. I am doing something I somewhat enjoy, which is selling on the internet. I have been into antiques and collectibles for years and started online selling in 1998 so I could be at home with my daughter in her younger years. I did quite well at first as there was not as much competition when I started. I took classes to earn my Appraiser in Personal Property certification and started my own estate liquidation business. (I got my thin-skin hurt one times too many and got out of it, and continued online selling).Now, with so many others pulling out things from attics and going to yard and estate sales and doing the same thing, my widgets and whatnots have flooded the market and there is not as much desire from them. I have to work so much longer and harder to make money. Putting in 10-12 hours a day to make money is not a fun nor is it my idea of a satisfying lifetime "career". There are other things which I would love so much more and I feel would be much more satisfying to me. It is not an option for me to pursue them right now. I have to stick with what I know.
Staying sober is my number one priority because if I am not sober, it doesn't matter anyway, and I won't be able to work much again and may as well start planning for my funeral so my relatives won't be burdened with it. I like the self-esteem which I am beginning to have and it feels really good being clearer headed enough to work. I feel if my HP, which is God, leads me to do something else in the future, He will let me know. For now, I just realize that sometimes I gotta do what I gotta do to get to the point where I can do what I want to do. Thank you for letting me share. And by the way, if any of you have any "widgets" or "whatnots" you would like to sell and are not sure what it is, you can PM me a pic of it and if I know what it is myself, I'll be glad to let you know. I don't know a whole lot about any one thing, but know quite a bit about a lot of things and will gladly help you if I can.
BTY
-- Edited by betterthanyesterday52 on Thursday 27th of February 2014 08:53:32 AM
Sounds like you're seeing things much clearer now than in the past BTY ... congrats on the new perspective of life ... yes, all things work to the good for those that love the Lord ... just keep your 'priority' as it is now ... sobriety ...
and thanks for the offer to I.D. stuff, LOL ... I got an old '8-Track' tape player/amp I ran across during the move (bought it in mid to late 1970's I think) ... ... ... but gave away about 150 tapes 25 years ago, I got drunk and just gave them away ... (and I knew how to repair them)(they have an internal metal 'trip' tape that has to be replaced after they get to 10 years old or so) ... (just threw away 100+ cassette tapes when we moved) ... Now I'm trying to figure if I what to keep all the CD's I have ... oh, when I gave away those 8-Track tapes, I also gave away over a 100 LP vinyl records too ... I've done a lot of very stupid things when I drank !!! ...
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Hi BTY! Wow...isn't it a wonderful feeling to be sober and productive again!?!?! I just love hearing this from you. You're doing very well. I clearly remember back to the moment when I first realized that I was being competent, professional, and productive in my trade again. It gave me such a good feeling to be useful once again, instead of feeling so useless as I once did. I'll never forget when I was really able to put my skills to the test. I was not quite 2 years sober when our electric utility company asked me (along with several others) to compete in the International Lineman's Rodeo down in Kansas City. To my utter surprise, my crew finished in the top 10%. When that happened, I no longer felt like a worthless, useless shlub like I did before. That really gave me the confidence to keep working harder and improve myself on the job even more. Our Father God has done for me what I could never have done for myself. I still thank Him for that.
