I've been put on alert.  I've been blessed for such a long time and HP wanted to let me know that I'm still human and subject to "humaness".

Friday tried to finish a bathroom remodel for a client and thought (lol) I had all my ducks in line and then of course learned "you don't take a duck to a bathroom remodel" cause ...well just because.  In no time at all with the best of intentions not only did what I was trying to install and thought (lol) was done come crashing down the  crash also damaged the tub...Let go and let God....worked easy does it...backed up and restarted with additional information which may (realistic expectations) help me finish it the way it shoulda, coulda, woulda already been done. Blah plus another repair (da tub).  Relaxed and Let go and Let Akua...I'm just not God...sigh!!  Good stuff...no anger, no resentments, no self pity or much remorse (some remorse cause I'd rather it be done my client already paid me for it.  It's gonna cost me some of my own bucks also and then "honestly" that's my kuleana...responsibility isn't it?

Saturday was research about how to built a better mouse trap (insure the remodel would be good "next time" and relax the stress. Saturday afternoon spoke with another recovering guy who just came up on 2 years 7 months and was stressing out (2 of us in the same town...go figure) and I gave him stuff my sponsor gave me years ago..."No matter how bad it looks and no matter how bad it feels...It won't kill you...let it run its course and then move on".   He looked at me and said "What"!! and I told him "precisely how I responded to my sponsor".  "The thoughts and feelings cannot and will not kill you if you don't act crazy on them.  Go read literature or speak to another recovering person...do anything  but react negatively and don't drink".

Saturday night was okay and Sunday morning was meeting 1 (recovery) and meeting 2 (government) and then home.  Tired and then energized at the Niners took out the Packers at the end of a tied game.  Tweaked my Sponsor (Packer Backer) and pissed him off.  Akua likes him better than me cause just after I did this I was lifting a box and the tab broke and I punched myself in the eye.   Apologized to my sponsor and my Higher Power.

Monday morning...went to work and on the journey rear-ended a lady in her van...we were both responsible and there was no damage to either her van or my old truck...I put my emergency blinkers on and we hugged it out.  Scared so kept double extra spacing twix me and the other vehicles.  Monday afternoon got in another accident with the Client's business truck.  Was on my way to the green-waste dump and an elder citizen (Uncle John) pulled out too soon behind the truck and hit it...tore his Chevy up and dented the back of the truck but not so much.  Poor "Uncle John" (we have titles of respect for our elders) was upset and had trouble dialing 911 so I offered and did it and we waited for the police to come make a report (gad's I wish these guys would lighten up and smile...and then I 3cee it).  Okay reports done and I'm on my way to green-waste and just afore I get there another driver comes out of a side drive turning right on course for a head-on with the truck.  He chose my lane to drive in and just ...just missed doing the front of the truck.  He continued  on in the wrong lane and I went on breathing and went on myself  in time to find that green-waste was closed for half an hour.  Thought I'd turn around and go back to my client's hotel and then decided to sit...stay....be still....

Days done...got the stuff to replace what broke in the shower plus some extra ESH from the vendor...came home to hide and to read what my MIP family does to get thru their lives and keep smiling...I'm smiling...good stuff happened also.   If it wasn't for the good stuff also...I'd be 3 stepping over and over and over and over.  Thanks for letting me share and for your loving ESH.   ((((HUGS))))