It's a slow night tonight on MIP and I am alone. I hope no one minds another post by me. One of those cop shows just came on and I usually change the channel, but didn't. In this show, they have arrested two people for drinking and driving, there was a fight between a couple--the husband walked in and caught his wife and another man "changing the sheets" and now there are different people and one is this screaming woman being restrained on the floor by a cop and two other cops trying to restrain two men, one bloodied. All of these people appeared to be loaded. I guess this is what all of these cop shows have in them, because they sure have enough material to work with.
This brings back some bad memories because I was arrested for a DUI almost four years ago. Last year I was arrested for domestic violence. He called the cops when we were drunk and fighting and I scratched him on the arm--I couldn't remember doing it and he couldn't even remember when/how I did it when he was telling the cops. I didn't ever call the cops the times he was beating me in the head and put bruises all over my body and hit me in the mouth, but that didn't matter because I didn't call for help. All that mattered was that I did somehow do it and it is considered violence and I did get arrested. It was not long after that I got sober.
and It's so good to be sober. I think I am going to turn off the t.v., fix some Suisse Miss and read some of my Big Book.
-- Edited by betterthanyesterday52 on Wednesday 1st of January 2014 07:48:38 PM
Post away BTY! That's why we're here. No need to sit in negative thoughts by yourself. Your post reminds me of the devastating consequences of misusing Alcohol and drugs. The depths we go to are astonishing. It goes so much further than just the physical aspect of drinking the liquid. The terror I used to wake up to in the morning was paralyzing. Did I hurt or kill someone the night before? Checking in with others to see what I actually said or did. The gray and blackouts were really scary. I'm grateful I don't have to live like that anymore. But, it's hearing others stories and shows like the one you watch that remind me of the devastation. I never want to forget!
Thanks, Mike...That must have been horrible for you! I never woke up wondering if I killed someone, but I did wish I was dead so many times and then I would wake up in the middle of the night fearful I was going to die. Crazy, crazy thinking, and I am grateful I don't have to live like that anymore, too.
