...beautiful souls :) I hope you're having a wonderful day and glad you popped on to MIP this morning to join the quest to be a proud member of our human family! My favorite lady from my home group - Lois - always says "I'm glad you're all here, I'm glad I'm here and WANT to be here". That last part about wanting to be here sure is a blessing. That really hits home to me.
So my life is getting better every day. Some days I'm so amazed still! I heard them say more would be revealed... I just didn't know how much more grateful and peaceful life would get, and how much joy it could create!
My daughter is getting used to school now, she's in 4k. We have had some big challenges adjusting. Me as much as her. It's so hard to let go. But in letting go, I am loving her more, and in the most unselfish way. A way I wouldn't have been capable of before. If I were left to the bondage of me without this program, I would love her, and squeeze her and never ever ever let go. But I am less selfish now. I can be an example of trusting others, and trusting everything will be okay without me. She gets to make new friends, learn new things, practice her independence - and I get to do the same. This of course, makes us much better for each other when we meet again. She runs to me with her back pack nearly as big as her and falling off... and lets it drop to leap into my arms each day... every day... and we are ready to take on the world with our new self confidence, new self worth, and renewed humility and strength of HP. We talk about our day over tea and cookies... the least caloric kind that are in our imagination. We put on our fanciest hats and they are also the free kind...
She teaches me that it's okay to be a kid. It IS OK. :)
My son in 1st grade is still a bit teary sometimes to leave as well. Today was a good day. He was ready - armed with his petrified frog for show and tell. He found it down in the crick completely in tact - just very dead and boy what a find! WAY better than a live frog for a 7 yr old boy! We live on the highway. We don't really have any real neighbors out here in the north country except the older couple across the road. All of us down the highway are sort of 'neighbors' if you're within a 10 mile stretch. Our arms stretch a little farther and the possibilities are limitless because we have to rearrange general concepts of what's 'close' and whats too far to run for an egg.
About 5 miles down we pass an older couple that stand out at the end of the driveway with a cute little girl waiting for the bus. I always enjoy passing by on our way to school because every morning, BOTH the man and woman are out there waiting with the girl. Today I flew by and they were giving a big bear hug good bye. I saw the bus in my rear mirror. I got a way down and all at once had to spin around and go back. Max says "what are you doing?" I say "you'll see".
We get back and I pull into the driveway and they luckily have a circle to turn around in. I looped around and faced them head on... they waved and came over with a big smile. So happy in their very old age - in true Wisconsin fashion with the orange stocking cap and barn boots they merrily pranced to the window.
I got a little tear in my eye because they were just how I imagined. I said "I'm so proud to be a part of my human family because of you folks. I see you out here every morning with your grand daughter and it just brings a smile to my face. You are just so loving to her, and present. You make me so proud. I just wanted to stop and let you know." I had a little tear in my eye because I was just over joyed and filled with emotion.
The lady took my hand that was gripping the window and said "That's our great great grand daughter. We get an hour with her every morning." They both smiled and their little rosey cheeks that popped with delight will forever be in my memory.
They GET to spend an hour every morning.
That one word describes how I feel to be a part of my life and a part of such a wonderful world. I GET to.
I want to be here - and I'm glad I get to be. I love you guys and it's such an honor to be on the road to a happy destiny with you.
*** My son asked me why I stopped and told them all that this morning. By now he's a little used to the fact that I'm not really all that much like other moms in some ways. He was only partly surprised - more curious. I told him that it was because I love seeing love - and I love getting closer to it and not being afraid to show it. Just like you honey - when you walk out to the bus with Layla and I every morning in the cold. Why do you think you do that? He was quiet. I said "I think it's because you are so loving, and want to be near your family and be part of it." He said "Yeah, REALLY loving family".
And as he says it - I almost hear out loud the breaking of the chains as the cycle is broken. xxxoxoxoxxoxoxxxo
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
Okay, ... as soon as I get the tears out my eyes, I'll continue my message ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... I've said this before and I'll say it again ... WRITE A BOOK Tasha ... that was an absolutely beautiful description of your morning ... I can't think of anything more to say than to say 'Thank God for this program' ... keep coming back ... ... ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Absolutely a wonderful beautiful description of your morning and the joy you have found in life. It is stories like yours that keep me coming back to this board so I can read how it is now for those who have been in the program a while. That is exactly what I hope to find along the way, so, I will just keep coming back and reading more of the good stuff.
((((Tasha)))) Isn't it soooo grand to be able to go beyond just watching it often times to be able to touch it? I love the picture you paint and it's surprises. That was their Great Great Granddaughter. They've been loving for a long time. We get to keep it moving. Thanks for the picture. (((hugs)))
I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
Well...Hello to you too, Tasha! What beautiful words you wrote! I say they're beautiful because they were written about selfless love. It's the most important element of life and living. And, just think...we get to experience it because of the loving God we've learned to rely on in this Program. There are few things more wonderful than a child running toward you for a hug. My youngest son is going to be 21 next week, and he still runs to hug me when he comes home from college. Thank you God for making me into the kind of dad that a child can love and want to hug. Thank you for your post my friend. Blessings and....love to you and your family. Mike D.
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