Who'd a thought it? 7 years and one day ago I was in a plice cell, believeing my world had collapsed and my life was worthless.
Now - it's rather different. I'm enjoying sobriety and promises are coming true - like we will intuitively know.....
This morning, me and the lady I've been in a relationship with for about 18 months agreed that this was as far as it can go. We aren't going to move any further forward than we already have. So it's time to close this chapter. We're still friends and will remain so, there is no bitterness, no real sadness, maybe a touch of wistfulness. I could see that this was as far as it was gonna go and knew that that wasn't going to be enough long term. Fear held me back from making the first move, but when the oppertunity came to agree I took it willingly. Some might say this was weak and maybe it was, but the top and bottom of it is we've parted on good terms as friends.
Had this happened to me say a year ago, I would not have been so accepting, would have thought there was something wrong with me, all the negative things. Now I believe that this has just run it's course and come to a natural end.
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
Thank you for sharing your ESH in a loving and caring manner with us and giving back what you have been given..Always in support and prayer...Congratulations for receiving God's work and your diligence Just a day at a time...
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
From across many ponds...Congradulations Bill and many more of them...one day at a time. Mahalo also for the "how it works" on emotional sobriety and acceptance. I can use those things all the time. Have a serene 24 hours.
