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Our actor is self-centered, ego-centric, as people like to call it nowadays. He is like the retired business man who lolls in the Florida sunshine in the winter complaining of the sad state of the nation; the minister who sighs over the sins of the twentieth century; politicians and reformers who are sure all would be Utopia if the rest of the world would only behave; the outlaw safe cracker who thinks society has wronged him; and the alcoholic who has lost all and is locked up. Whatever our protestations, are not most of us concerned with ourselves, our resentments, or our self-pity?

Selfishness, self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles. Driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity, we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate. Sometimes they hurt us, seemingly without provocation, but we invariably find that at some time in the past we have made decisions based on self which later placed us in a position to be hurt.

So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making. They arise out of ourselves, and the alcoholic is an extreme example of self-will run riot, though he usually doesn't think so. Above everything, we alcoholics must be rid of this selfishness. We must, or it kill us! God makes that possible. And there often seems no way of entirely getting rid of self without His aid. Many of us had moral and philosophical convictions galore, but we could not live up to them even though we would have liked to. Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power. We had to have God's help.

This is the how and the why of it. First of all, we had to quit playing God. It didn't work. Next, we decided that hereafter in this drama of life, God was going to be our Director. He is the Principal; we are His agents. He is the Father, and we are His children. Most Good ideas are simple, and this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant arch through which we passed to freedom.

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Hi Jersey


 


A very good read, thank you.


I have a Son that is an atheist/agnostic, who also is a Doctor.   one of my favorite things I like to say to him about once a year, when he is rolling around in that self driven- ego, is:


     "What is the difference between God and a Doctor?"


      Answer:   "God does not think he's a Doctor."






                                                                   
                                                                           


Thanks Jersey, good to see you on the MIP Board.


Toni Baloney


 


 


 



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Toni,

since alot of us have been venting about things, much like i did when i first came around....not that i dont do today but its in moderation...yeah i have issues i always will being an alcoholic...

this part in the BB hit me hard this time around and cut me off at the knees. I mean like i really looked at my choices during my 'career' and i really could say to myself that I played a significant part in all of my 'vents'

mainly do to me not accepting some person place or thing exactly the way it was...me being self centered and prideful.

this is where i gained some freedom because i saw where i could make it easy or make it hard for myself.

it was simple really give up self to gain an identity to be something more than an angry bitter person with a chip on my shoulder.

because i realised i have always had a choice i just didnt care about making the right one.

this reality of myself was phenominal and profoundly changed my life....i am responsible today because of this awareness and i cant let me get away with it anymore....because when i do i know it and i feel like shit afterwards so why not just do the next right thing and live and let live and be free...

it is just so amazing how simple it is and it humbles me...thank god for AA.

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Hi Jersey,


Well for me I was not an angry bitter prson, but I was a very dishonest manipulative person. i lived a live of telling people what they wanted to hear, or say what ever I had to say or do to get my own way, in a lot of things.  That is why the Program came so hard to me,  I really did not have a clue what rigorous honesty was.  Well I knew what it sounded like it was.  but could not see how I could ever get there. 


It was the Blessing of finally turning my life over to God's will, when I finally had one full year of sobriety, I knew in my heart that that was God working in my life,  Because I was the type of Alcoholic, that could not, not drink.  And by nothing less of a Miracle, I had not had a drink for 12 months.  My 1st AA birthday, was a truly  Amazing day in my life.  I could barely believe that i had made it,  and it gave me a profound sense of faith in a Higher power, that i choose to call God.  From the moment of surrender, to Him, that was when I came to Believe.


And if having God in my life could turn my drinking around, then I could ask for Guidance in becoming an honest person, telling the truth, turned into something so much LESS complicated than all the lies.  I share with you the humbleing that began to take place inside of me.


God does see all the errors of our ways, and if we are willing to face them and ask for help with what ever it takes to change them, then we begin to see a new person emerging.  And when we ask  to be shown His way, not our old way, then we begin to see and understand, the saying, "When we know better, we do better".


All of us are truly Blessed with his forgiveness, and I do feel we are all his children.  I am no longer a young woman, but still a Child of God.  We all are.


God Bless you Jersey,


Toni,


 



-- Edited by Toni Baloney at 00:43, 2006-01-22

-- Edited by Toni Baloney at 00:48, 2006-01-22

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