I'm not RID nor suffering from any HALT. I'm not craving or worried. I'm not obsessing.
I just can't focus. I have work to do and a house to pack and I'm buggering about on the mobile writing posts.
Of course. Slightly distracted because girlfriend came home two days ago after nearly a month away. (Go see her again after tonight's meeting)
Hmmm. Maybe best thing to do is just chill in the sunfor ten.
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Aloha Bill thanks for the confirmation that I and not I alone suffer at the thought of "How important is it"? Some of my dawdling is procrastination and some is coming to the realization that "Hey I once thought this was important and now after looking at it again and again "I'm over it" I loose the focus and the energy and motivation. As I get older I entertain the "let go and let God" (see if God wants to do it) attitude more and more and on some things I should not because they have higher priority than just sitting down and back and doing nothing or something simple. Having someone else around to help motivate for whatever justification helps and then like you I'm the loner. Pick your choice...follow thru. Have a good day.
-- Edited by Jerry F on Thursday 18th of July 2013 12:10:43 PM
Yeah, just relax with your GF. That would be this alcoholics advice.
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The sway of alcohol over mankind is unquestionably due to its power to stimulate the mystical faculties of human nature, usually crushed to earth by the cold facts and dry criticisms of the sober hour. ---William James
I too, get caught up with a lot of 'life' happening all at one time ... sometimes there seems to be so many things going on that it's hard to concentrate on any one thing ... and this sometimes start to make me feel a little 'out-of-control' ... then something will 'click' in my head that tells me that I am never actually 'in control' and that I have prayed for God to take control and that is exactly what is going on, I just have to 'realize that fact' ... ... ...
Oddly enough, this morning, while having my coffee on the back deck, I was consumed in thought about my medical status, my wife being gone most of the time, trying to be comfortable being by myself so much lately, and other things that I just could not put it all together in some sort of 'logical' meaning ... and then it happened ... there was a 'thump' not more than 10 to 12 feet away from where I sat ... I looked over to see that yet another bird mistook our large 'picture window' for passage into another part of the open air ... she hit the window and was lying on the ground, not moving ... I went over and picked the poor thing up and she opened her eyes and looked at me like, 'what just happened here?' ...
I held her upright for about ten minutes while talking gently to her and saying stupid stuff, like I was talking to a baby ... I then put her on a lower tree branch and continued to stroke her back and breast ... after a few minutes, she had the strength to stand on her own ... she didn't move ... I went on to finish my 'luke warm' coffee and returned 10 minutes later to see she was still there ... I stroked her again for another five minutes or so and she seemed to say thank you for the help here ... then she flew away ...
I sat back down on the deck and thought, thank you God for this opportunity to get away from myself for a few minutes, to see and enjoy the beauty of Your creation and to be apart of it ... then I thought, what the heck was I so consumed with a few minutes ago ... NOW, none of that seemed very important ... I was just given the opportunity to touch the hand of God for just a moment in time ... then I knew, today wasn't about me and my perceived problems, it was simply about 'living' ... and being content with what I have been blessed with ... No worries mate!!!
Love you guys and God Bless, Pappy
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