One afternoon while I was cleaning myself up in the mens room I heard my Higher Power ask, "So who are you"? and after acknowledging the question and saying "I find this a strange place for spiritual conversation...who am I"?  HP asked me "Are you Gerry with a G or Jerry with a J".  I didn't know for the moment  I had drank the Jerry out of my life and changed myself intentionally to Gerry...spending the next several decades asserting the "Gerry with a G".  After HP spoke I went into a period of strong elation because I took the exercise with HP as permission to going back to Jerry with a J and I was happy and laughing out loud as I left the cleanup to return to my office.  About 20 feet from the door of the lavatory I stopped laughing and started crying in heavy sobs at the realization that I no longer knew who Jerry with a J was.  I gave that personality away in order to live the life of G.  In my alcoholism counseling my VA counselor diagnoses me as dual personality and supported the choice my HP offered...that I learn again about Jerry and let Gerry go.  I no longer spend wasted time trying to describe Gerry with a G because it is Jerry with a J who sits at meetings and announces himself as "Aloha...I'm Jerry and I am alcoholic".    I'm glad to have gone back to rescue the person I was before I was lost.   Mahalo Tasha.  Very meaningful.   ((((hugs))))