Well I went to a f2f meeting tonight for the first time. Not sure when or if I can make it back again but at least I went. One fellow said something that struck me. He said putting grog, people etc aside the problem is me. It comes back to me.
Tracey
Our problem is our problem. Nobody ever threw me down and poured booze into me. Honesty and responsibility is needed. Not being able to go to AA meetings is as bad as what? Usually this is a result. DEATH, MENTAL INSTATUTION OE JAIL. pick your poison. BE WELL
I know people that regularly introduce themselves as "Hi I am an alcoholic and my problem is Mark (or whatever their name is)." I figure AA has enough hokey sayings and practices lol. That one is a bit too much for me though of course I get it.
It's that dang spiritual axiom...It always comes back to me.
"It is a spiritual axiom that every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us. If somebody hurts us and we are sore, we are in the wrong also."
Of course they also get around to the same basic thing in "Acceptance is the answer:
"And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation -- some fact of my life -- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes. "
That last sentence is the kicker - It always comes back to me.
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Funny thing was I went without fully knowing why I was going. I thought maybe there will be an open meeting that I could sit in on and see what its like. As Ive mentioned before I'm not an overly big drinker any more. Lucky to have 2 a year. I realised at a young age that alcohol was becoming a habit to me and it got me into terrible trouble so I've always been conscious about how much I had. Well after I shared my story the fellow who's had 40+yrs sober said that I fit into the group nicely??????? Now my head is wrapping itself around it. I may hardly drink but I can overeat and overexercise. So the tendencies to over do things are there.
Tracey
