Miracles In Progress,,,thats what WE are....Sometimes the pendulum has to swing all the way to one side before its starts coming back up...Your probably not in a mood for cute sayings but I firmly believe that God(whatever your concept is)doesn't leave us,WE leave God.
A thought as WE walk this journey:
The Footprints Prayer
One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.
Not preachin up in here ,but can identify with you and know there is another way to live based on my own evidence.Keep the Faith man,,
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
I used to "wander off" my AA program, not drink yet but get lazy and selfish. I'm an alcoholic and I'm inclined to seek a drink .....
I'd get to the point where I'd come to realize that things were more comfortable in AA. So I'd toddle to AA.
I saw a webpage a while ago about the 11 Stages of relapse (Google it) and realized that I am seldom at the top of the list. My alcohol(ism) wants me to stray "off the beam".
Today I try to be aware where I am in those 11 stages and try to keep up around the top. AA meetings help me in that quest.
Welcome to the MIP board Layne, ... glad you're here ... glad you have a means to communicate with us ...
I am not too sure I understood all you were trying to say ... i.e. you have little or no support ... and the town is more into 'mortality' ??? ... you sure you didn't mean 'morality' ???
If you're concerned with 'peace of mind' ... that has to come from within ... and is not based on external circumstances ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Welcome Layne! We all get here in the darkness. Some darker than others. Doesn't matter. We get here and that's the Gift. No one enters The Halls on a winning streak. Pain/suffering come before healing. Let the healing begin here and step into the light.