It started on Saturday last week, I told my buddy I am not going out, He put pressure on me to go out. I stayed firm and said no.
But two oclock my phone is ringing off the hook I wake up pick it up, he goes Murray I got two girls in the back of my car i'm bringing the party to you comming to pick u up. So that night lasted until tilll 8 am
Monday I desicided to drink a 24 all day drinking tuesday a 24 all day drinking wednesday a 24 of all day drinking, even took the day off work so I could party more, then went to a club that night don't remember much, but my drinking buddy told me i'm drinking too much
Thursday was a day off drinking but I was having nightmares because of the alcohol I think, One very religious one of a guy with a half of face that was telling me god forgives me as he was putting his finger down my throat.
Friday - went to a club, control drinking actually but I had a couple free shots and 3 beers.
Saturday was the kicker, my bank card was frozen because of me not paying my car accident bill , the goverment froze my account until I contact them , So one of my friends goes don't worry I'll give you a hundred cash lets party, so we did and we drank alot, end up at some after party place, which happenes to be the owners of the the clubs private after party spot. drinking like crazy I think someone put some drugs in my drink because I was pretty messed up more then normal either that or its from the week long of acting crazy.
today for me thats it time to grow the heck up. Day 1 was a bit foggy but its day one
thinking back you gotta wonder, what a true drinking friend is ... my buddy on wednesday, I vaguely remember him dropping me off after the club on wednesday, he goes murray you gotta cut back your drinking, you where pretty wasted tonight, then he hand me a beer he handed me a beer that he had in his car.
Hes the same friend that handed me a hundred cash on saturday saying money should never stop you from going out.
Hes the same person that on saturday picked me up at 2am from my earily story.
I ran into a drinking friend on friday (my aka my controlled drinking day) He had a kidney transplant so he's had to stop drinking since that day. He goes its been 133 days since I've had a drink
I remember when I realized that almost ALL of my 'friends' were in actuality glorified drinking buddies. I was also the one that would encourage more drinking, or more often than not be the one who didn't bother doing anything that didn't involve drinking. When you become sober, you quickly realize who your true friends are. I didn't have many, but I had to just accept it. Sobriety- my health, sanity and life had become more valuable to me. It's difficult, for sure- but being around people who don't truly care for your well-being is not worth it.
actually my friend is very controlled drinker, he never gets drunk. I wish I could be like him and just go out and have a 2 or 3. The problem isn't with him its with me. I lie to him at the club, i'll be like i'm going to the washroom but I'll run and grab a beer, I don't like him knowing how much I drink.
Welcome back. Once you get really involved in AA, you will see there is no need to move from the city. Folks in rural areas would have the complaint "There is nothing to do here but drink!" Moving is not the answer. Staying away from "drinking buddies" is a good idea and of course I would hold off on the club for a good while (at least a year) while going gangbuster AA. That is what I did.
The plus side of living in a high drinking - drug filled big city is that there usually is also HUGE recovery cuz so many folks head into AA just like you after having had enough. Don't move before giving the recovery community in your area a chance. I'd be willing to bet the AA community is very large.
I know that DC and New York are some of the greatest cities to get sober in. Meetings are everywhere and while you think that alcohol and drugs are so pervasive, after a few months sober, a new world will open up and you will see you've been missing out on a lot of life. There is always something fun and interesting in the city.
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PC makes a great point. I, too, live in a city with a big drinking culture. I'd always thought that there was nothing else worth doing but go to bars- they're on every block. There are also dozens of AA meetings in the area, which gives many options to accommodate pretty much any schedule. Good point, PC- and yes, I've realized how many cool things there are to do in the city that don't involve drinking, bars, or clubs. It's great