I just want to take a moment to share the final update I added to a post from a week or so past...     

     This might sound strange but the primary lesson I learned while I was at my friends house and my daughter was with her dad was how very much I hate being without my daughter.  Being away from her took the purpose out of my work and some of the joy out of my sobriety.  It was a powerful reminder of one of the primary reasons that I became sober which was to offer my daughter a better opportunity at life than I had thus far offered her and to seee what kind of life I might get if I would just let God be God and get out of my own way.

     And you know what? Having gotten out of exes parents house, and continuing to live life on its own terms, and being with my daughter, and continuing to work, even when grief seems overwhelming, even when life seems overwhelming, even when my back aches and my feet are tired, or my feelings get hurt have all pointed me to the same conclusion: that God is, that people are, and that life can be a beautiful gift when I am serving the one who made and called me and not just running on my own will.

      I am so grateful to have gotten out from under the tyranny of a household and a relationship which were in such stark contrast to what I value in life.  I am so grateful that today, I am learning how to allow my vision to shape my life circumstances rather than allow my life circumstances to shape my vision.  I am grateful to enjoy each day sober.

     Thanks again, my friends, for being an enjoyable and awesome part of each sober day, 395 so far, and especially for this sober day.  Enjoy your now.  P.S.  My little Sophia is all snuggled up in the bed smiling at me.  She really thinks I am something else.  I suspect God might agree with her.

     Love, Victoria

-- Edited by SolanoGypsy on Saturday 9th of February 2013 10:14:00 AM