So I slipped. Something clicked in my alcoholic brain and I went on a two day drinking binge. The good news is that afterward I felt physically sick, emotionally crushed and deeply remorseful. Good! I'm glad I still feel like shit 3 days later. I'm glad I'm so profoundly miserable because of it. I was arrogant and foolish thought I had it all under control..."I"..."had control"...well I think we see what happens when I'm in control. Some people are slow learners, I am one of them. I called my sponsor and I am rededicating myself to what was working. Thank you all for the words of support.
Put the baby bottle behind you and go find your rubber ducky. Getting sober is like learning to swim: watching - action - instinct.
Splash around for a while until you get it. It's a little scary, but you can do it. It goes against your instincts to self destruct and drown in the sea of alcohol.
Watch others - take actions based upon what you see works - let your true self & your true instincts surface. There are millions of sober life guards here for you... so jump in and trust you can do it too... and if not... we'll catch you until you can if you let us.
Soon you'll float down the river of serenity.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
Ain't no use getting on to you Sober Mc ... ... ... you didn't do anything I haven't already tried ... I was so damn hard-headed the it took me years to get here and stay here ... like you, I tried everything but 'not drink' ...
Hopefully you'll progress in the program before the alcohol destroys your body too much ... ... ... you're in my prayers man ... never, ever give up, you can do it with a little help from your friends ... just like the old Beatles song ... LOL
(betcha Dean can dig that one up somewhere!)
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
