Im new to this its my first post.i will be honest im drinking well im typing.I need to stop drinking excessivly but i find it impossible i work 7 days a week and my only escape is booze i have freinds who are in AA but Im to pround to talk to them. last night I pissed myself in bed beside my wife and its not the first time.I love drinking but I truley cant stop.
I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
Im new to this its my first post.i will be honest im drinking well im typing.I need to stop drinking excessivly but i find it impossible i work 7 days a week and my only escape is booze i have freinds who are in AA but Im to pround to talk to them. last night I pissed myself in bed beside my wife and its not the first time.I love drinking but I truley cant stop.
Welcome Bill, ...
Being honest is a good start, believe it or not ... the only requirement for AA membership is the desire to stop drinking,
so your in if you want to be ... there are no dues or fees ... just a desire to stop drinking ...
We couldn't stop drinking on our own either ... we needed each other to make it happen ... look up your local AA schedule
on the internet(AA meetings ... then your city, state will do) ... then get yourself to a meeting ... just sit and listen if you like
you don't have to participate unless you feel like it ... but pick up an AA Big Book (usually 'at cost') at the meeting if you can
... start reading the first 164 pages for now ... and by all means, keep coming back, we're here for you ... we KNOW what
you're going through, we've all been there ...
Take Care and God Bless,
Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
That sounds familiar. I thought I loved getting drunk too. There is a difference between loving something and being fully addicted to it though. At this point you are just believing a lie. And besides what is to escape from? What is so horrible about work and life with your wife that you need to be drunk all the time? I used to think I needed to "escape" so badly but that turned out to be a lie of alcoholism too. All I was doing was running and hiding from perceived problems that were not ever what I made them out to be. It did take AA to achieve long term sobriety for me. I also had to hit bottom with my drinking. I passed through a pretty long phase of drinking every day and being scared that I couldn't stop. It took something drastic (smashing my car drunk) to realize it was time to go to AA.
Alcoholism distorts our thinking so much about what is really important. If you sat back and thought about what it's doing to your marriage and how being a sloppy drunk is limiting you - you would not say you love it. I got to the point where I hated it and still couldn't stop. Insanity.
Feel free to come to a face to face AA meeting and surrender to the process of getting sober. It will only get worse up until you do. Also, if your friends that are in AA are really true friends, they already know (we can spot our own) and most of them have being praying you would probably become ready to talk to them.
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Welcome Bill! I am very new to the board and to AA so I don't have any great advice except that entering the program was the best thing I couldve done for me. I know exactly where you sit and I've been there oh too many times. But here it is OK, it is SAFE it is HELPFUL and it is BEST for me. I wish you well and hope you keep coming back.
Aloha Bill and welcome to MIP (again). The co-founder of AA was a Bill...Bill W, One of my sponsors (awesome man) was a Bill...Bill S, One of my sponsees was a Bill...Bill W. And there are thousands more I guess. We have room for Bills as many as will wall in the door and ask "Can you help me"?
You know you don't have to drink. There is no law that says you gotta and you have found justification to do it. I'll bet if you do what I did you'll find that there are more justifications not to then there are to drink.
Somewhere near the top of the list you can insert "don't want to piss the bed while sleeping next to my wife". You could add "So little time away from work, would like to keep it sober". Maybe others here would like to insert some of their justifications not to drink. Keep coming back and go look up the hotline number for the central office of AA in your area...just in case you'd want to carry around the meeting list of places and times we get together in your neighborhood.
Welcome Bill, Hope you can make it to a meeting soon.
If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking, you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic. If that be the case, you may be suffering from an illness which only a spiritual experience will conquer. Page 44 Big Book of AA
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Rob
"There ain't no Coupe DeVille hiding in the bottom of a Cracker Jack Box."
Welcome!
I urge you to give a call to your local AA intergroup to talk to someone if you do 't want to approach your friends. Many areas have meeting at various times of the day. Many have been where you are and found sobriety. It will be worth your effort.
