How would you like to go up in the sky... up in the sky so blue? Oh I do think it's the most beautiful thing, ever a child could do. Up in the sky, over the hills, I can see so high, over the fields of daffodils, over the country side!
I recite this little poem to my children as I push them on the swing, over and over, my daughter could say this before she could really talk... that hopefully makes sense at least to the parents out there.
My mother of course, recited it to me many times, and it brings back the good times I had as a child, swinging, playing, swimming, chasing frogs & fire flies. I'm feeling more inclined to remember those wonderful trips to the park with my mother, or my dad pitching me a ball in the yard, even if it was less than a handful of times. I still have those memories, and I cherish them today.
As I prepare for my 9th step amends, I'm trying to remember the "best of times" instead of my usual choice of the "worst of times", so I can go forth with gratitude and love for the people I've wronged. And in making that conscious choice, I can see that it really was my choice all along anyway. I can actually lift my head out of the pity pot whenever I want to. I do have a choice today thanks to AA and my HP.
-- Edited by justadrunk on Monday 20th of August 2012 05:29:04 PM
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
It is such an important concept to observe the good more than the bad. Yes, my alcoholic head wants to focus on the bad as an excuse not to go ahead and do stuff I need to do. I can find all sorts of excuses to focus on and blame others. But as you say, it's as simple as lifting our heads out of that place and changing the thinking, seeing that "blue sky", and marching forwards to it.
Those 9th step promises dangled before me like a carrot, and the God of my understanding I found in the previous steps gave me the courage to do them. Also I knew that thousands before me had done the amends and I benefitted from their experience as well.
