I drank on wednesday. But only 2 and a half beers. And the whole time I thought "I look ridiculous with a drink in my hand" and envisioned myself as that beer belly 40 year old woman at a bar with a smokers voice and a cigarette. Drinking is not attractive. Anyway, I drank 2 and ahalf, went to bed, went to work and was fine. Didn't even think about it.
Except for.... "who stops at two and a HALF" really? You just put it down and went to bed? YES.
But alas, I'm drunk tonight. My typical 3, cause we only bought 1 six pack and we split it between the two of us. Tomorrow. I'm gonna have to start again... After 3.5 years.
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They told me that if my primary or my only reason for drinking was to get drunk, then I'm an alcoholic. I used to time my drinking. 8 oz to every 30 minutes, until I felt my face melt off. Because after my face started to melt... I was garunteed to throw up if I continued. Who thinks like that ruhig? "I know that I can drink until this point and anything after that I'll throw up." ?? Crazy. Go to bed, sober up and start again tomorrow. One day at a time.
(((hugs)))
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In the end, everything will be alright. If it is not alright, it is not the end... Paulo coelho (also marigold hotel)
What happens when he brings home another six pack ??? ... Do you think, okay, I only drank the three last time, so I know I can handle it ??? ...
One way or the other, you're going to have to KNOW ... you can OR you can't ... you can ride the fence for only just so long before a weak spot in the fence gives way ... which side do you fall on ?
You know what the results are ... you're too intelligent to ignore them ...
Love you, regardless of your choice,
Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Ruhig...You didn't drink away the three and ahalf years of sober time you have...you had to take that with you. Don't forget what you've learned...it still works when you work it. ((hugs))
Honestly Ruhig, You had 3 1/2 years one day at a time. That is pretty damn good. The sobriety and the program worked on you because you are here, owning up, and climbing on your horse again. Yes, get back to the basics and put the years of sobriety to work.
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Tomorrow. Its a meditation meeting on the 11 step. Seeing as how i had a dream that a priest was at my rehab and i told him i owned the place... Its time to go Back to meetings.
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Welcome back:) but please no more Algebra talk! Lol.. Only classed in college I didn't get an A in and I'm still pissed about it hahaha.. Glad you have rejoined us
Meeting tonight. Had a long conversation with my sponsor. I sort of threw a fit. Not very spiritual. Started shutting my mouth. Sponsor said that I need more humility in my life, and to shut my "effin trouble makin mouth"... So I'm backin off a bit and observing. I'm good with people watching for now anyway. Appreciate your concern though.
And to Cole, I apologize for the mathematics.
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sober: showing no excessive or extreme qualities of fancy, emotion, or prejudice
Meeting tonight. Had a long conversation with my sponsor. I sort of threw a fit. Not very spiritual. Started shutting my mouth. Sponsor said that I need more humility in my life, and to shut my "effin trouble makin mouth"... So I'm backin off a bit and observing. I'm good with people watching for now anyway. Appreciate your concern though.
And to Cole, I apologize for the mathematics.
Hey Ruhig,
Thats the key. Sometimes you need to just observe. We always need to keep the steps alive by re considering them. A bit of chillaxin' then action. Keep plugging!
Tom
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