"What do you mean, 'unmangeable'?" we ask when we first come into the program. (And we are surprised at the smiling faces and suppressed chuckles.) We have been living with our delusions for so long that we really believe everything is okay - or will be okay nextweek. We simply can't see how out of control our lives truly are: angry creditors, unemployment, separation or divorce, health problems.
Some of these situations were ridiculous, others tragic - and still we fantasized that we were in control. After a period of time in the program, however, living with them seems hard to imagine. But if we still think we have control, we need to ask for help in facing our delusions and our tomorrow-will-be-better syndrome.
Have I turned the management of my life over to God?
Higher Power, help me to truly accept Step One.
I will look at what is unmanageable in my life today by...
Curteousy of AnneE from "Just For Today Meditations"
Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Great reading, thanks Pappy. Step one, woah. This was/is the hardest step for me so far. Being alcoholics we want to control everything and don't admit defeat. It took me a long time to truly turn it over. But unless you fully give it over, then you won't stay clean.
The only step we have to get 100% right....When I first started reading the big book I looked at that step and and wondered why it wasn't worded like...I'm an alcoholic and I totally screwed up my life.....Which was true...One day my sponsor looked at me and said....You have no Power and you need a new Manager....He was right.
