I needed to get a lot sicker before I got better. I've made peace with a god of my understanding which was a long process for a devout atheist. I've come to understand that my use of alcohol was to escape my profoundly self-conscious and hyper-critical ego and to fill a spiritual void from a lack of connection to a power greater than myself.
I'm not articulating myself as well as I'd like to but the point I'm trying to make is that I realized that, for a variety of reasons, I have been suffering from a condition that I only knew how to live with by numbing myself. I'm beginning to learn that there are other ways of overcoming and living happily that wont cause myself injury. It's hard to walk away from the only "medicine" I've ever known...I guess that's why it's taken me years to get anywhere.
-- Edited by TipsyMcstagger on Tuesday 24th of July 2012 01:36:43 PM
I just read this and your post in another thread...You sound like a different person....Amazing...Keep going forward......You don't know how happy that makes me to hear that. You just have to be ready....I'm glad you made it Tipsy...Too many people don't.
-- Edited by Stepchild on Tuesday 24th of July 2012 04:38:54 PM
I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
I think you articulated yourself very well. Those thoughts and feelings you have about yourself, they will be taken deeper over time and you'll continue to see more and more about this, and the solutions will get more and more numerous.
James, It's great to hear from you. I've said it recently, being a little cracked, lets the light in. It's not such a bad thing. Glad you're still working for it.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
James, It's great to hear from you. I've said it recently, being a little cracked, lets the light in. It's not such a bad thing. Glad you're still working for it.