You have us Closer, don't forget. Yeah, we may be just a series of user names in some sober forum called "MIP", but if you think about it we're more real than you can imagine. We've been in similar situations ourselves, so we know how difficult life can be. But what we can offer in exchange is some valuable insights on how to live a sober life, especially in stressful times like these. So stay close and never give up hope, okay. How your life begins to unfold from there is up to you and the man upstairs. So stay connected and never second guess sobriety, ever. We won't, either should you.
-- Edited by Mr_David on Thursday 12th of July 2012 12:09:16 AM
Ive been to over 30 meetings in the last 12 days or so... Im feeling a much warmer feeling than I have in years and Im seeing it so much clearer... Ive been in such a sick place for so long and I dont have anyone left besides a mother who is a bit sick herself (and I barely see her) Im 26 turning 27 in September and I havent worked since october 2007. My family disappeared years ago and Ive been in the care of an awful mental health team... But Ive been continously going to AA over and over for the last bit and Im seeing how sick this is, Im really not sure who my family was, but Im pretty sure they werent the best people. I had the broken home with drugs and alcohol scenario back a long time ago...Noones even there anymore, the house we rented was given up when my Dad ran off with his old girlfriend. Hes been 3000 miles away since then. Ive completed the whole downward spiral thing and Im kinda sitting here laughing right now. I dont really know how Im alive but Ive got a real HP in my life, and I dont know what else to do but trust it. I have nowhere to go but maybe a job at MCd's
You do have us and the fellowship Closer. That fellowship will grow as you participate in The Program. A fellowship of men and women with the same problem and same solution. Your life will have new meaning and purpose. Many of us got here with very small worlds around us. You've been granted the grace of God and are the choosen one. Embrace that gift and let the miracle unfold.
As far as the job. I've seen many pray and then move their feet. God will provide us with what we need as long as we're willing to move our feet.
Yeah Closer...I don't think any of us walked through the doors of AA because we are were on a winning streak and life was coming up roses. I know for myself...I was at the point that the only way I could see out was six feet straight down.....I had family members that had taken that route and I wanted to try something different. It was as simple for me as getting on my knees and asking God to help me....That I couldn't take it anymore. Somehow I ended up in a rehab that somehow introduced me to AA that somehow put people in my life that changed it....And I didn't drink anymore. You should be grateful that your Higher Power let you see this problem at the age of 26....I stopped when I was 53 and I left behind a lot of wreckage and hurt a lot of people. It had it's claws in me so bad and I couldn't even see it....It just got worse by the day....Progressive Disease?. I know what that means now. AA is a family for me...Just as much as the people on this site or any suffering alcoholic that hasn't found AA yet is. I've been there...All I had to do was Trust God...Not drink...Go to meetings...Study the book...Find a sponsor to show me how to do what's in the book...And help others.....Not a bad deal....For a new life I didn't think was possible....And to have a problem that consumed me my entire life be gone. You do that Closer....And your life will change....And that's a promise. I'm glad you are here.
WE do this together and you have found a place(meetings) where you can IDENTIFY no matter how different the war stories may be.Remain focused ,follow suggestions,one being listening for a sponsor and get into our "solution' the STEPS ,worked with a sponsor and the application of the spiritual principles in all areas ,attitudes and behaviors of our lives..Keep coming back,WE are here for each other.
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Hey Closer, you're one of the lucky ones ... and it is a blessing to be able to think and walk and even have the possibility to work ... ... ... even if it is a Micky D's ... many out there never make it back to the 'upright' position ... and some are left in beds or wheelchairs for what-ever is left of their life ... You are very blessed, as am I ...
So let's make the most of it ... live sober today ... tomorrow will take care of itself ... God will provide what we need if we'll just talk to Him and let Him do His job ... Sanity is a marvelous thing ... so let's not let King Alcohol rob us of it ... live for today like it was your last day on earth ...
God Bless you man, Pappy
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