Sometimes when I'm singing, I am just doing so to get to the good part. But this morning, as I was singing the boring low tones of the chorus, I realized, that sometimes a wise person can get more from the low notes, than a fool could get singing the high ones.
I was the fool thinking that the song would sound beautiful belted out, as loud as could be, that only the high notes mattered. I wanted them all to be high notes. Singing one long, loud high note didn't end up being all that fun or beautiful. And as you can imagine, no one enjoyed being around me, as I sang my "song". I couldn't help anyone be more joyful in that state.
It's time for me to realize that all the notes count. It's time for me to start enjoying the song, so others can too. It's really just time for me to be the person I was meant to be. To let go. To be free. To sing a new tune.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
there was once a story about a man who emerged from a bar and saw a drunk looking for something on the ground under a streetlight, he walks and asks the drunk what he is looking for, "my keys" the drunk slurred, after looking for around ten minutes the man asked, "are you SURE you lost them here?" The drunk answered, "No, I lost them over there" and pointed to a dark alley. "Well why were you searching here then?" the man asked. "The light is better here" the drunk answered.
In my experience we tend to work on the character defects that are "in the light", the ones that aren't too uncomfortable to look at and we get to be good actors by "working on our character defects" when in fact we have a slew of character defects we either don't want to face, or frankly, aren't ready to let go of.
Your post about the low notes and the high notes reminds me of the epiphany I had when I realized this, and I realized what the 6th step was actually asking of me.
"This is the step that separates the men from the boys" Bill's spiritual adviser told him (apropos as he was a catholic priest) but the truth is, that is a true statement, working on our character defects down in the dark alleys and dark recesses of our secret little souls is where true growth takes place, doing the work that is uncomfortable, so we can hear "The Great Song" which is life in all it's glory.
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Light a man a fire and he's warm for a night, set a man on fire and he will be warm for the rest of his life
It can't be any worse than my singing, Tasha. Talk about embarrassing. The only high note I'd be singing is the 'nutcracker falsetto'. My singing is so bad that even dogs run for cover. So don't feel so bad Tasha, it could be worse you know...watching me sing.
Tonight I will begin practice with the Gospel Choir. Last year, I remember it being rough to stay sober for practice on Thursdays, and then missing all 3 concerts, after so much work & preparation, in favor of red wine. Looking forward to this sober season of singing... the first ever in my adult life. Thanks for being here!
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
