Tonight at my home group I got up when the secretary asked if anyone would like to recommit to their sobriety.
I had been nervous about this all week because all the folks there had seen me get one just two weeks ago.
I found myself thinking, "I wish I could tell everyone that I only had ONE drink, that I didn't enjoy it, and that I actually learned a lot about my alcoholism and about myself from picking it up."
But you don't get to make a speech with your desire chip. And you know what? That is fine, better than fine actually, because if you are an alcoholic,it doesn't matter if it was one drink or twenty, or if you enjoyed it or not. (I sure didn't enjoy a lot of the drinks I had when I was practicing, especially not on the way back up ). By just getting up there and taking that white chip, I was showing that I learned from, and about, my alcoholism. What I learned is that I really, really want to stay sober.
Thank you for helping me to do that, on this day 4 of my new count :)
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The Golden Rule: Treat yourself the way you treat others.
Tonight at my home group I got up when the secretary asked if anyone would like to recommit to their sobriety. I had been nervous about this all week because all the folks there had seen me get one just two weeks ago. I found myself thinking, "I wish I could tell everyone that I only had ONE drink, that I didn't enjoy it, and that I actually learned a lot about my alcoholism and about myself from picking it up." But you don't get to make a speech with your desire chip. And you know what? That is fine, better than fine actually, because if you are an alcoholic,it doesn't matter if it was one drink or twenty, or if you enjoyed it or not. (I sure didn't enjoy a lot of the drinks I had when I was practicing, especially not on the way back up ). By just getting up there and taking that white chip, I was showing that I learned from, and about, my alcoholism. What I learned is that I really, really want to stay sober. Thank you for helping me to do that, on this day 4 of my new count :)
I am living proof that it can be done and that I am one drink away from "undoing it." The thought of throwing 27 years down the drain makes me wonder what could be the reason for me to start back at square one. Can't think of one. Today, nothing is so bad that I can't face it full tilt Bozo...head on. God didn't make me more special than you; it's an even playing field. Care to join me?
Thanks for sharing that. Way back when, when I was still struggling, one of the groups had a Bernie protocol (thats my name by the way - Bernie). Whenever they seen me coming they hid all the desire chips. I picked up 40 altogether. I'm like WD-40, the oil. The first 39 times they tried it, it didn't work. So now I'm BS-40...so do not be discouraged. we're glad youre here
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Not all my days are priceless, but none of my days are worthless, anymore.
so glad you have a desire to not drink! life is so much better without hangovers, headaches, and puking, dontchathink? and without alcohol i can think about others and do service to get out of my destructive self centeredness. keep coming back, we are glad you made it back. jj/sheila
Nice on Aspgrl...and talk about gaining insight, spot on. I think that my last drink was two pints of beer (four bottles of beer in other words).
I really wanted, for the longest time to tell everyone that, how I was able to stop after the two pints, cause I didn't like it, cause I -- now realize -- I wanted everyone to say "hey man, you're not an alkie, alkies can't stop". Which in turn would mean that I didn't need to go to AA...and which would mean that I could drink...you get the picture. Took me a loooong time to understand that only alkies think like that.
I'd have saved myself a love of tumble-dry in the head if I'd adopted your mentality -- well done.
Its a day at a time,every day is a new day,For me in my early days it was just a moment at a time,and every moment changes. Drinking 24/7 I never gave a damb if it were morning or night. Each night I crashed out drunk :{
Today I go to bed with a sweet smile of sobriety, and thanking my Higher Power for my help in staying sober again today. :} Well done I hope you continue with a hop,skip and jump in each step forward you make.
I have always been told If you do not pick up that first drink you will not get drunk..''' Its that simple ''' some people think they get drunk on the 6/9th. lol. They must know, But its that ''First drink that will do the damage'' :{ .
Today I am sober through the help of my higher power and everyone I come into contact that love and live AA.
We are all Miracles page 1 of the Daily Reflections :} and in the index we can find pages and pages on something to help the way we feel.
Yes I am grateful for all that I have and all that I am.
It's good to get these extra white chips out of the way in early sobriety. I've got a few in my Chip Jar. The amount of "time" lost, at this point will seem insignificant a few years down the road.
). By just getting up there and taking that white chip, I was showing that I learned from, and about, my alcoholism. What I learned is that I really, really want to stay sober.
Thank you for helping me to do that, on this day 4 of my new count :)
WELCOME...keep doing the work,day at a time and reach for our solution,the steps worked with a sponsor!!!