Nice Wolfie...One of my early sponsors recently passed away physically; in February; but only physically. In my culture we keep the spirit with us and so Don T., like Al and Bill S., is still with me. They are all hanging with my Higher Power now kinda sorta making up a Higher Higher Power for my recovery. They take up more space now in my life and don't take up as much room. We're blessed.
-- Edited by Jerry F on Sunday 29th of April 2012 08:07:35 AM
I was just thinking of some things my sponsor said to me way back when. I think he was a mathematician because he was always adding and subtracting things from my life when he talked. I was dating a woman who drank and she didn't understand the whole total abstinence thing and to make a long story short I was worried that if I stopped drinking I'd have to stop seeing her.
Anyway, he said, "If not getting laid is the only thing keeping you from stopping drinking, then maybe you should go have another drink. I'll be here when you get back......if you make it back."
Another time when I was on the pity pot, he made a suggestion that if life without booze was that bad, then maybe I should keep drinking, or go jump in front of a train. Either way, he said, you'll be dead and I will miss you.
I asked him one day why he made those comments. Like, what if I had followed through with them and then he said, you weren't listening to anything else I was saying so I figured it was safe. Then he laughed and told me to read some page in the book that nine times out of ten hit the nail right on the head.
One day he emailed me, said we hadn't spoken in a while but he'd read one of my stories in the grapevine and could see I was doing well. Told me he was proud of me.
About a month later he went to the big meeting in the sky. That was ten years ago today. I'm beginning to understand what he meant about missing people when they're gone. Because sometimes I could really use some of that love he gave me.
Well thats enough of that kind of talk. Have a great Sunday!
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That made me smile :} My first sponsor first time in was a tough old cookie too :} She would never mince her words and said it like it was. I went to see her in a nursing home last time I saw her, she was so pleased we were back in the rooms. She died a few years ago and must have had 35yrs sober good for her,she made it. She always said that AA's were always there for her, and when she needed help with her bathing day's when she lived independently she called upon me,even scrubbing her back we would do AA talking :} I always to this day pass on what she told me to do in the early days. Read page 62-68 each day. :} I drove her to all the intergroup meetings she attended and knew she was helping me to understand :}
Yes I often think of her,she was a tough old bird. God bless her.
thanks, Wofie. i won't be taking a drink today (or jump in front of a train) too busy for that sh*t, enjoying being sober and being of service. jj/sheila keep coming back.
