hey all!  I am need of a temporary sponsor to get me through until next week.  I tried to find a meeting last night but could not find the location.  I have another possiblity tomorrow but it may be cancelled due to a revival going on in the church.

Here's the deal.  I have not drank much at all in the last couple of years and not at all since September.  I have been reading posts here and belong to a Al-anon email meeting.  I have not been to a face to face meeting ever.  It was a delicate topic with my boyfriend who was also an alcoholic but he had come to terms with me attending meetings a couple of weeks ago.

The thing is that he died a week ago today from a massive heart attack.  I am in serious crisis mode though coping fairly well.  However, one of the ways I quit drinking was by staying away from drinking (the bar).  After his funeral, I did go with the group to the bar for food and I did buy a beer at one point but only took a couple of drinks and gave it away.  I have also been around a lot more drinking with friends and family stoppping by.  There is a benefit to get through on Saturday. 

So, I am basically worried that I might start again because I am in pain.  I have also had our friends ask before drinking in front of me and do not want them to feel awkward.

I don't think I will drink especially after all that has happened BUT I do need support for what is going to be a very awkward situtation.

So, any help would be appreciated!