I am retaching out to you all... I ave tryed to surch for a AA forrum but I have not clue if I found one. BAD forum... I will show you a good one or 2 layouts.
Anyway,,, I cannot stop drinking. I am drunk and trying to stop now. I stopped for 2 weeks... but hey.. that is nothing. :( I always go back and IDK why.... slight urg... OVER whelming,,,, it veries what pushes. :( I just know I dont want to anymore.
before you drink this morning, call the AA hotline, they can direct you to a meeting. keep listening whether it makes sense or not.... keep listening. after the meetings talk to women... if you want to quit drinking you need to be honest with yourself and others, openminded, and willing to do whatever it takes to stop drinking. keep coming back, y'hear? we have all been where you are. jj
You're in the right spot. I don't know what your drinking history is but I can tell you a little about mine. I had to detox under medical supervision. People die trying to do that on their own and I wasn't up for taking that test. After I got cleaned up a little bit and got some of my brain cells working I started looking into what AA had to offer. I found out I had a serious problem and they had a solution that has worked for me. I do know that I couldn't get help if I was drinking. For me..The safe way to stop was to detox in a facility. Then I started to look into this program. I found out why I drink like I do and why there is no way I can drink again.
Stepchild has a great suggestion for you ... please try to re-read it ... Again, we've all been where you are now ... 1st we had to admit we had a problem and It would seem you have admitted just that ... Do like jj suggested right now, CALL the hotline and get help ... we DO care ...
I pray you'll have enough common sense to follow through ... at least long enough to see there is life beyond alcohol or drugs, God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Aloha and welcome to the board. Please keep coming back and read the suggestions after you have not had a drink for several hours. Things will be different after a couple of hours...not so good and not so bad but different and you will be able to understand a little bit more from those who have arrested their drinking compulsion with total abstinence.
JJ and stepchild have great feedback for you and if your drunk it might seem like rocket science however this program is simple; not easy but simple. Don't drink...re-read their feedback...follow thru on it; then repeat. Prayers for you. ((((hugs))))
Welcome ,only you can make that "admission" and begin to seek a new way to live.WE are here for each other,won't you join us..........Just For Today ,you do not have to pick up that first drink......
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Welcome Mariah. Glad to have you here with us. I believe no one gets here by accident. Some good suggestions have been made here by those who have been in your shoes. Me included. It sounds like your at the jumping off point? You've made a good start here by asking for help. To keep it simple: don't drink, go to a meeting today(even if you already drank) and ask for help. Repeat tomorrow.
I know your pain. I know exactly how it feels when alcohol quits working like it used to. I know how lost you feel. I know your desperation. The fear, shame and guilt. I know what it's like when you can't imagine life with or without alcohol. I gave up and I reached out in desperation just as you are now. I had to detox. So I looked in the phone book and made the call. Sometimes we cannot quit on our own. It can be life threatening to do it alone. I don't have insurance and was still accepted into the detox facility. After about 6 days there the mental fog started lifting. I asked about AA and they put me in touch with some people that have been exactly what I've been through. I started going to meetings everyday and it has been 3 weeks since I drank. The first week was real hard with all the anxiety and fear, but I keep going to meetings. By the end of the first week I had a few phone numbers from people in the meetings I was going to. Sometimes it was real hard to make a call but I made it. By the second week I wasn't even fighting off the urge to drink and I kept going to meetings. It was a little more peaceful in my head. Now its the third week and I actually look forward to going to an AA meeting. I don't dread talking to other AA's on the phone. I don't dread the future as much. I don't even let myself get tied up about my past. You don't have to be alone anymore, Moopoo!!!!!
Welcome. Get to a meeting. Listen. Schedule another meeting. Listen. Don't drink between meetings. Listen. Reserve judgement. We're all arrogant royalty ruling our fear and shame with an iron fist. Listen. Someone will say something that lights your candle. Talk to them. And if you have to devour a pint of ice cream to curb the jones...do it. If you feel the need for medical attention...get it. Our disease loves to leave corpses in its wake. We love you.
Welcome, your post sounds familar to me. I can relate to what you shared. I could not "stop starting" no matter how hard I tried. I tried changing what I dranked(brand,color,beer,wine,light beer,etc.) I made new years resolutions and failed miserably. I swore to God,my family and anyone who would listen that I was done. I finally went to treatment. I was about 18 months dry and still thinking that I was not a alcoholic. I thought that I could still drink and be okay. I was different from the rest of them, so I thought. I hit a bottom and I thank my higher power that he gave me that moment of clarity and desparation which I consider as Gifts. I did not go back to drinking but my life at that time was miserable. One day at a time, I admitted and I accepted that I am a alcoholic, studied the Big Book, attended meetings, allowed my sponsor to guide me through the 12 steps of Alcoholic Anonymous and my life is indescribably wonderful. Not only did God remove my obsession, he placed me in a world in which I did not know existed. I am not the same person I was when I first came to AA. I am a better person and for that and many changes in my life and others, I am grateful.Thanks for sharing and Keep Coming Back!
I have sent an email to this person, who posted this message on the board, asking them to return and view your replies, with a link to the board in case they can't remember where its at, or that they were even here...
I surely hope we can have the opportunity to help this person find the road to recovery.. and carry a message that inspires hope within them.
I read the post and I thought... 'But by the Grace of God.. there go I".
Hey John, hope that works. We get a fair amount of 1 time posters that don't return to read replies. Gonee responded 2 minutes after the initial post and JJ 24 minutes later. Most 1st time posters are getting replies fairly quickly and they are getting a white board message and a personal message from at least either I or Danielle. It's sad to see a person's authentic self asking for help, like a drowning person, only to submerge again back into the drink. The windows openings in the denial are small and short in duration, like a prisoner's chance to escape.
