Intuition is a spiritual faculty and does not explain, but simply points the way. --Florence Scovel Shinn
Should we make this move? Should we change jobs? Should we talk to others about our feelings? We are seldom short on prayers when we're filled with fear and indecision. We are, however, short on answers. Our worries block them out.No prayer ever goes unanswered. Of this we can be certain. On the other hand, the answer may not be what we'd hoped for. In fact, we may not recognize it as the answer because we are expecting something quite different. It takes willingness on our part to be free of our preconceptions--free to accept whatever answers are offered.
######ROSIE......so many times i am FORCED to make a change...and i am thinking there HAS to be a better way to change....why not just listen/ look/ observe the *signs* i pray/meditate, but i feel disconnected lately....and it seems the fear factor is up lately with my job so uncertain.....i know i have to be totally free of what i think, rather than what is to be, what is in my life chart......i wonder about prayers not being answered i remember i used to pray for help during my abuse, and i had to endure it...there was no answer/ no help back than, so i am not sure about this statement that "no prayer goes unanswered" mine did not while i was being abused.....i didn't get away from him completely until i was what??? 22??? when i could finally steal money enough from him to run 3,000 miles away....and i had to steal to get away from him.....i guess this is why i feel that it is all up to me, and because i am so limited, i get scared because i AM powerless, i accept that...but i do not trust in anything higher than me to help me.....i have SEEN my prayers go unanswered.....i have SEEN God help some and not others....and i was one of the *others* many times....i have also seen HP help me *some* since recovery, and i show gratitude!! but its been MY hard work MY dedication to me/ recovery that has moved me this far......i pray over and over again that i am WILLING to trust in HP, but HP must help me to believe...i cannot do it by myself....there is too much *history* between us i am WILLING to have better outlook on HP...i am OPEN for it...but i need help in really believing/ trusting....it isn't there for me yet...and i have had to go back to the first 3 steps over it....i am hoping these messages i am planting into my sub-mind will help me, i am doing all i can do be able to trust.....but i DO know that prayers DO go unanswered....heard maybe but not answered!! i can only tell it like i see it..i cannot do anything but *call it the way i have seen it* there are times when i can see an HP in my life, helping me, but not equal to the suffering i have had to go through.....i am willing, i am open...i am loving me enough to *keep going* in the program....i will keep on *keepin on* as they say...i will NOT give up on me.....i am looking within....maybe i am just in a *bad patch* now, but i know , good and bad, i do have trust issues with any HP.....i am willing to change that with working the program
Our answers come unexpectedly, a chance meeting on the street, a passage in a book or newspaper, a nagging feeling within. God speaks to each of us throughout the day. Our prayers are answered, our problems find solutions, and our worries are eased, if we but attune ourselves to the messages. They are all around........I will be attentive to all the signs from God today. Whatever answer I seek is finding its way to me.
########ROSIE.....yep, i have seen some answers to my prayers come out of the blue!!! i think this bad patch and detaching from it, caused my sponser to write a post to me on my thread and suggest a tape , another tape, in addition to the *i love me* tape, a tape of my prayers for better finances/ love answered....she told me to "thank my HP for the abundence i have NOW to meet my needs/ retire----and for my good health and loving relationships" she told me to make the tape AS THOUGH my needs/ wants are already taken care of....so i made it, with her help and i am listening to it!!! if the "i love me" tape can help me love me......i pray this one will help me trust in my HP ...it is gratitude tape to HP who ANSWERED my needs/ wants.........i guess my injuries are so deep seated that it is going to take sub-mind messages to overwrite those old horrible messages that are holding me back....i DO take responsibility for either staying in the same old negative rut.....OR doing the sub-mind work and changing it....i no longer want to bitch and complain and curse my circumstances....i want to CHANGE them with ACTION and focus on the SOLUTION....so i see improvement there.......B4, it was bitching and moaning and cursing my rotten life........now it is "ok, WHAT can i do to change my pessimism?? my gloom and doom thinking???" i know in the past that was mostly what i got!! living in that hell hole, it WAS gloom and doom...my IC is only acting upon what she was taught.....NOW it is time to overwrite those old awful messages, and convince myself that "hey that was then, this is NOW....we are FREE of him.....we can change our karma"....so that is what i am doing.... change ME change MY thoughts......change my life!!!!! improve my karma.....this is all part of my work to make good karma for me.......i have the desire... i have the feeling i deserve it.....i KNOW i am worthy of it.....so i am hard at work, going to the next level, i am learning to love/trust/rely on me.....now it is time to love/ trust/rely on HP to bring to me the good i so deserve.....change my attitude....improve my karma.......thank you DONE
out of the blue, yep just the other night coming home in the car on the radio, talked about drunk driver killing 3,boy thetime i drank then drove, little reminder for me rosie, thanks wagon
