Thank you very much, Mark. It is beautiful to share today with you. What can I say? A little under 4 years ago I came to MIP & was loved while I learned how to love myself. I immersed myself in fellowship & program here in Liverpool & I recovered from active alcoholism.
My experience of A.A. here was & still is well supplimented in my joy of visiting here & knowing all of you some. There were times I wasn't sure of my journey in A.A. & Oldtimers like Dean, Wren, Quetzal & newcomers like yourself nurtured & carried me while I came to know, understand, relate & obey my own Higher Power which I believe keeps me sober today. I love the process of our program & I love watching others growing & having an own experience of that.
I don't post a lot as I have my time taken up with the many things I'm packing into the stream today so posting the dailies when I can is the least I can do to give something back. I check in here practically everyday to check everyone's ok & we're all at least having some touch of fellowship without conflict & controversy. I know I am a part of this :)
I'm proud of everyone who visits & contributes here. I continue to learn from all of you. There is no loneliness in my heart today. The pain of that kind of suffering is over. I have been empowered to make different choices today & I pass this on any way I can. I have built a fellowship around me & I'm nestled in. I'm deeply grateful for the 5 years sobriety I have been granted.
To give you an update I stopped dreaming in the bottom of the bottle & I began to live my dreams as goals. I'm now have all the basic training I need as a support worker & I'm in my second year of my Counselling Diploma. I have my first clients this week & I'm made up. I've done many things in recovery like having my first foreign holidays where I also attended A.A. Conventions & met our fellowship abroad.
I continue to work this spiritual program & it gives me the power I need to keep loving even when I'm afraid. Carl & I have 3.5 happy years together. He helped me raise the funds for my new scooter to celebrate my 5 years. It looks like a cross between a Harley & a Vespa. Very cute lol Another recovery reward!
As well as all of these 'material' things the best bit is how I feel about myself & the way I can love today that I could never really reach when I was drinking. I don't want those old ways back in my life. I love this discipline & I hope to never give it up 1Day@aTime. I believe in our Steps & our Traditions. I'm an A.A.er through & through.
CoDA has also helped me to understand our steps in deep & profound ways. I've spent 2.5yrs devoted to that work too & I feel it helps me understand the emotional sobriety I can have in my program regarding my potential to dominate & depend through others in unhealthy ways. CoDA has helped me get Very Specific! This too has helped me to know my true dependence is upon & for God as I understand.
It's all good! I just wanted to give you a quick snapshot & a taste of my gratitude. Thank you for your post, Mark. We are a perfect circle :D God love you. I do too, Danielle x
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Congrats on 5 years Danielle! A major milestone in recovery when one should feel very comfortable with their sober identity. Sorry it's a little late, just got back from the mountains.