Not sure whats wrong with me????? Had a busy summer getting every thing done for my daughters wedding. It was stressful but hung in there. Wedding was beautiful and to be honest very glad to have it over. Held my head high with the ex husband and my ex best friend in attendance. Stayed in my program. Never felt like drinking but ever since I have been on the verge of depression. I am still running. Ran the muddies half marathon I have ever ran last weekend. My diet is not good and having a hard time picking my self back up. I have been judgemental and I hate when I go there. Im sure its a phase but yuck I hate this. Tired of helping everyone out all the time. To tell you the truth just tired of stupid selfish people. Hmmm....Been told if I spot it I got it. Think I will go and make a gratitude list and do some deep house work lol....maybe I will come up with my problem lol sorry just venting a bunch of nonsense and feeling sorry for myself. Wait!!!! Thats it....get out of yourself!!!!! Hmmmmm ..... bet thats it!
Hey Susie! yeah me too,had to step back a little and do some "inside' stuff.Just shared about this other night at a meeting......Just got back from 10 days in Florida,lot of rain,hurricanes up and down Northeast and Florida,running was nightmare ,so humid,(little fat and older maybe :) so just found myself back into some self centered ways, working hard to remain in a spiritual realm,was annoyed cause we were sittin around and not "doin" stuff" feeling kind of mean spirited (couldnt put finger on it)didnt make any meetings while I was there for one reason or another,being intensely around family that I love was making me crazy,,,,, blah,blah, After getting home ,kinda realized I probably was stressing on leaving my job,making move in July to Florida,no employment and not sure of my feelings. God has reentered (although never left ,I just took a sabbatical) and made some amends to my family for ogre activity(I am human,sometimes I fool myself :) and am feeling right back at it..I also had to get out of myself,feel Gods comfort, and I am TOTALLY SURRENDERED ' to the new adventure and try and "get back in the day,man I been living months away...exhausted but good now...Feeling excited,rewired and actively involved in our decisiopns and definitely allowing God to handle results. mORE WIL CONTINUALLY BE REVEALED AND im LOOKIN FORWARD.. i KEEP REMEMERING :"BE NOT ANXIOUS IN ANYTHING BUT IN ALL THINGS BRING MY PETITIONS BEFOR E GOD AND THAT PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING WILL GUARD MY HEART. Gettin my second wind again and I know you can identify with that...........Thanks for sharing ,identification with another is truly a blessing...
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Thanks Cindy for your reply.....and Mike THANK you I so related with your post! I forget sometimes im human :(. Since I quit drinking I am always wanting to show everyone that I am in a better place and I dont like to ruffle anyones feathers. That being said.....when I get to feeling the way I have been I want to let everyone know just how I feel (and its not all good. lol) Just writing on here put things in perspective and lets me know im not alone in my craziness. You have alot going on too Mikef and I really learn from you. So I guess I will get a second wind and move on down the road!! Where abouts in florida are you going??? I make it down that way every year. Im in Deans area....Treasure Island. I plan on hitting the beach meeting when Im down there around xmas time. Thanks again Cindy and Mikef for posting!!!
Hi Susie, This reminds me of ME yesterday! I was just feeling so overwhelmed by my busy life, nothing was really wrong, just feeling like I'm giving and giving, and going and going, and not having time for self care, relaxation and to just BE. Well, as I was hurrying my kids home on foot from school and preparing to zoom home to cook dinner, feed them then rush off to a school PTA meeting, a bird overhead unexpectedly...pooped on my head! It was gross! It was a big one, dripping down my hair onto my neck and shoulder, and in my ear. There was no doubt about it, a shower was in immediate order. I would not have time to do everything on "my list"...So I went home and got into the hot shower, and while getting clean and marveling at my kind of luck- I realized that this really WAS a Godsend. I immediately changed my day. Instead of rushing to get to the next thing on my agenda, I took a leisurely shower, lit candles, got into comfy houseclothes, cooked a yummy dinner with the kids while listening to music...skipped the meeting and we had a movie night at home instead! It was delightful to just slow down and enjoy life with my children.
WE are not human DOings...we are human BEings. We need to take the time to relax and just enjoy who we are, and appreciate what is right in front of us. Rejoice in gratitude for our blessings. I am thankful for the bird, the little Godling who changed my day and my outlook.
Perfect Heather. Thanks for the grin and the insight. Great attitude for sure and I think im catching on!!! You can turn your day around at any time!! I just took a nice hot shower put on my comfy cloths and looking forward to tv and popcorn. Lifes simple pleasure is what it is all about. Thanks for posting you hit the nail on the head!
This is a good "life on life's terms thread." Not every day is stellar and the promises don't say they all will be. Lots better than before though right? And you snap back lots quicker too I bet.
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