In response to your comments about me being "weak", or that I'm "not a real man", or Dolls sarcastic commented on how "my disease is progressing nicely", or how I'm in denial, etc, etc...
I have some news for you people, your lives don't appear to be all shits and giggles. Most of you who post on here seem pretty goddamn miserable if you ask me. But hey, who am I to judge...if spending countless hours in musty church basements feeling sorry for yourselves and listening to the ramblings of broken down drunks makes you happy, goody for you! What makes me happy coming to the realization that my drinking is just a symptom of the way I'm allowing myself to feel and perceive the world around me. I'll help myself by taking control of my emotions, my feelings and my life, not by begging some god to fix me.
If you people really have this burning desire within you to help others arrive at this magical place you've found you really need to start practicing what you preach. If you don't any newcomer with an ounce of intelligence will see you as hypocrites and think very poorly of you.
ewwwweee:) Anger--someone musta hit home somewhere.
Tipsy? If you dont beleive youre an alky, go and do your thing man:) If you can handle and manage it--great!! There is no in between. Youre an alcoholic---or your not an alcoholic. Only you can answer that one.
If you cant handle it-then theres a program called Alcoholics Anonymous to arrest your disease.
Theres no point in comming into this site, and playing head games with yourself, and everyone here.
Weve all been to the bottom of the barrels, and wound up in the sand traps. AA was the only thing to save our lives, and show us a new way.
Youre just not ready for AA bud. Yu need to do some more research yet. So-go do some, and all the best to yu.
And as an old timer told me when I first came in here, with my big ego, and knowing all the answers "Youre just a little splash in one big ocean--youre not the whole damned ocean"
Another old guy told me to put a rag in my mouth, and open my ears and listen"
I told them what they could do with their right hands, and had to go back out and go all the way to the dump. You might hafta too.
See yu!!
This program is for those that need and want it. Youre still playing games with it.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
I just call it the way I see it. And you're right, my life is not all shits and giggles. Life on Life's terms. However, it's a hell of a lot better now than when I was looking for answers, confidence, self esteem, courage, love and what ever else you can think of, in the bottom of a bottle. Now, I get to FEEL what I FEEL! And it's awesome!
I wish you well.
Keep coming back.
-- Edited by Doll at 13:29, 2005-10-13
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
Phil, who are you to say that I'm "playing head games" or that I'm"just not ready" or anything about me for that matter? Where do you get the nerve to be so judgemental? Who or what gives you the authority to diagnose anyone's mental or emotional state? You're a mess buddy...you aren't even working the program that you claim you are. You're an arrogant fool and if your not careful that "know it all have all the answers" attitude will land you right back at the bottom of a bottle on skid row again...which I'm sure isn't that far back in your past.
Remove the plank form your own eye before you try to remove the splinter from mine you hypocritical loser.
Im not judging you Mctaggart. Im looking at myself in a mirror, when I first came into the programm of AA 21 years ago. --the rest of it is life on lifes terms buddy. I thought I had all the answers for everything--hell man!! I didnt even know the questions.
Yup-just like looking in a mirror. You do what you think best Tip. I did, and I lost it all.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Been readin this with interest, sticks an stones, yeah they hurt an so can words, if this guy is above all the rest of us why,s he keep comin back?
because he,s a wind up merchant gettin a kick out of pokin sticks in to ants nests,
I used to hang around a coupla boards, when i was feeling nasty an in my cups, bang in a post then lurk around waiting for a responce, getting a kick out of it.
not proud to admit it but im honest enugh now to see it for what it was .....this to shall pass
I guess Badger feels that he should decide who should be on this board, who is sincere and decent enough to meet his rigorous standards. What an awesome responsibility he's placed on himself! He must be a wonderful faultless human being to be in a position to judge the poor pathetic likes of me and you.
Puh-leeeze...who give a shit what you think. Really, who the phuck are you?
you know what, i came on the board cos i need help, i am full of faults, i am an alcoholic who is trying to get better, i guess i should have stayed out of this one, cos i new a wild card like you would round on anyone who dared speak up....be a good Badger keep yer head down an yer mouth shut cos Tipsy THE MAN is running the show, im having one hell of a bad day today an its only just begun, who knows it may end up in me pickin up a drink,
you have a real inferiority complex Tipsy, insulting folks then making grand peace proposals, mean while its all about you...you know how i know that?... BECAUSE I AM JUST LIKE YOU
I hope today is better than yesterday for you...I hope you didnt drink. And I sincerely hope that my stupid temper tantrum didnt make you want to. I'm sorry if it did.
