Back after being out for 5 years, after 12 years of sobriety. I have to deal with all the horrible thing I did to my family, especially my wife who wont talk to me. Wish I could make amends for what I have done. The mental abuse I put her through has made her want to die. Have to accepet that I cant do anything about it.
Welcome Home! Great time to reflect on "what your going to do different this time!!! Dont worry about amends right now, get into the solution, first getting and remaining sober,finding a sponsor and getting back on the horse,relapse is not the shame,not making it back is...You can start your amends by living and changing your attitudes and behaviors ,sometimes its all we can do....Glad you showed up here.sticl around and let us know how its going,each day sober is a day won and you only have to do it a day at a time.You had 12 years of sobriety but did that include working on"recovery" a very big difference...WE are here for each other ,stick around okay........
-- Edited by mikef on Friday 15th of July 2011 11:36:30 AM
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Good post...don't forget what you learned over the first 12 years. You can do something about it. Trust God...Clean House...Help Others. Helping others might look like opening the doors to the Al-Anon Family Groups for your spouse so that she can also come to understand. God is in both programs so she might get to Trust God also.
Making amends is changing. Keep coming back and glad you brought it here. (((hugs)))
Worked the program for first 2 years but not really only the first 3 steps. Got successful and quit going. I was better and smarter then the rest of you. Spent a lot of money so every one would how great I was. Now all I have is me. Been to 7 meetings in 3 days and things are getting a little better. Now all I need is time and flollow instructions. Thanks everone it means a lot to know you guys ar there
"Now all I need is time and flollow instructions" ....
Well there's a might more you should need...sponsor, big book, home group, service and a Power Greater than alcohol and or drugs. Simple program for complicated people.
I'm in support.
-- Edited by Jerry F on Saturday 16th of July 2011 11:55:40 PM
