And the bad part is, he hasn't even bothered to tell me yet. Still no phone call, no email. I am OK, other than a bit frustated as to WHY all of a sudden....... another woman is my guess........... ya'll pray for my obsessing over WHY to end soon. It's better today than yesterday and much better than 2 days ago....... I know, I know, time takes time.......
thanks for letting me share.
Love you all
Doll
-- Edited by Doll at 22:39, 2005-10-04
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
Doll, Sorry you are going through this. But I'm glad you are sharing, instead of drinking or isolating.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. You said it, let time take time, and I can add this too shall pass. But that doesn't mean we don't have to feel the emotions.
I know it will pass. I just wish it would pass a little faster!
A blessing in disguise? I had posted not so long ago that I've always known John was not "the one" and I was praying for the courage to end this relationship myself. It really was not a healthy one. We only saw each other a few times a week, we never went anywhere or did anything. He would never commit. He's lied by omission. I've never met his family nor been included in anyway. I was always prayng, begging, for MORE, praying that one day it would change. I suppose he was like an old comfy blanket that I'd just gotten used to curling up with. Change is tough, even when it's for the best. I will take this experience and use it to my advantage. I will grieve the loss. I will learn from it....... I do have to give John some of the credit for me coming to AA, it was him refusing to have anything to do with me when I drank that made me stop and think. Maybe I started it for HIM, but I'll continue it for ME.
I love you, Gammy. Thanks again
Hugs to you.
Doll
Insanity; doing the same things over and over and expecting different results.
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
Sorry all this is happening to you...let me know if I can help in anyway. You know that you are loved and valued here and at your f2f meetings...remember that, OK??
I remember the morning I had to call a friend in the program and share with her that God had just hit me over the head with the fact that if it had not been for my alcoholic husband I might not have gotten sober.It had gotten to the point where I realized that I was no longer the one who could drink and take care of us. I was always the one who after a night of partying could drive us home, but the last time, I did it in a blackout ,don't remember it at all.One of us had to get sober, it was me.
So, even though my husband is sitting in jail, on his way to state rehab, I must give credit were credit is due. Maybe that's one thing our relationship was meant for ,my sobriety, the other was the birth of our wonderful 19 year old son.
Stay sober, stay strong Doll, you are worth it.Love you too. And we need you.
Sounds like this guy did you a favor by stopping his contact with you. It also sounds like the word "commitment" is not part of his vocabulary. I'm sorry for you to have to go through the pain of an ended relationship; happy for you that you're rid of a partner not meant for you. Take care. M
