It really feels like the wreckage of the past is finally being swept away. A few days ago I revisited sep five with my sponsor and yes the original step five had left some detail out. The pure relief of getting thqt last bit out and not being judged was unreal and it's only taken four years and a lot of recent pain to get here.

Trust God? Well I'm still here, still trudging. OK so there were two letters from my solicitor on the mat this morning and neither were encouraging, one regarding the divorce one an invoice for other work and some legal advice. But as much as I don't like the advice or the bill at least I know where I stand.
Help others? Well it's not just alkies is it. Spent the weekend with my mum, going back tonight to take her to a funeral tomorrow. Her big sister died on wednesday and she needed thr company at the weekend more than I needed to be apart from her. OK so it tended to be a weekend of mum telling me what a bad person eileen is but every now and again mum would tell me how she felt about herself. Plus I was on the helpline and got two calls, one of whom got to a meeting but the other was dyeing her hair and couldn't go.......oh boy. And a meeting saturday night.
Got a sponsee coming round in a couple of hours today too.
Weather over here is truly awful but you know what, it'll be good for thr garden.