Here I am, sheepishly creeping back with my tail between my legs...once again I have an angry girlfriend, my career is in chaos and I feel like I've been hit by a truck.
If you could capture the way I feel right now on film and hang the picture on your fridge none of you would ever drink again. I'm a total failure, a complete loser, I can't even make AA work for me, I am so close to giving up and throwing in the towel. My girlfriend told me that when I dont come home she wonders if this will be the time I wind up in jail for drunk driving, or dead...I can't live with myself if I keep hurting the people I love.
I wish you people could help me. I'm at the end of my rope.
Hey Tip? Its damned good to see you back here. Takes a few of us, a touch longer to accept some of this stuff, and we have had to take another kick at the cat. Youre no different.
All I can share with yu buddy, is hit as many meetings as you can--dont pick up a drink one day at a time--and youll get better. As you get better-everything else will get better.
Used to sing that song " Oh Lord its hard to be Humble, when youre perfect in every way" Thought I was-lol Found out I wasnt.
We are addicted to alcohol buddy-I tried all the ways there were, not to hafta accept that. All of em.
Youre not alone pal. Every person you meet in this program, puts their hand out to you. No need to kick your ass. We do enough of that.
Again Tip. Welcome home!!!
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
There is NO SHAME in coming back........ the shame comes when you know you need to but don't or won't.......
I've been where you are now. It took me a relapse to truly admit my powerlessness over alcohol. When you're done kicking your own ass, pick it up, dust it off and get it to a meeting.
Welcome Back.
You're not alone.........
Doll
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* We eventually realize that just as the pains of alcoholism had to come before sobriety, emotional turmoil comes before serenity. *
Welcome back Tipsy. Step 1: We admit we are powerless over alcohol. and we admit that our lives have become unmanagable.
It can be one of the hardest steps, but it is essential before recovery starts.
Sounds like you have completed step 1
Congratulations. Stick with it, it will get easier, one day at a time.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
Hey Tipsy, I'm glad you are back,some don't make it back. Get to a meeting, find a sponsor, work the steps, and keep posting here.
My husband is in jail for violation of probation, felony DUI, he will be sent to a state rehab facility, he just got out of jail in Feb, and he is back already. He would not, or could not work a program. I feel there is no easier, softer way.
You can do it, one day at a time. That's how it works for me.
Sometimes one must surrender in order to win. I use that as my mantra because it took me so long to get it. I was taught the in the western way that one never surrenders, only cowards giveup and if there's a will there's a way, and it kept me drunk for 20 years after I tried to quit the first time. Miracle happen when you quit fighting and surrender. Good luck and may God bless you always. Bob.
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Work like you don't need the money
Love like you've never been hurt, and
dance like no one is watching.
yep,, sounds like a Step 1 to me too.. "admitted we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives have become unmanageable"... okay.. as for the 'who can help you?' question.. that goes to Step 2.. "came to believe in a Power greateer than myself".... do you believe in God? where is that at for you? ohh.. and it says "came to believe".. it does not say "I know all about God and have perfect faith" ... my understanding of God is still changing and I am still learning.
love in recovery,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
