Chapter 11
A VISION FOR YOU
    For most normal folks, drinking means conviviality,
companionship and colorful imagination.
It means release from care, boredom and worry.
It is joyous intimacy with friends and a feeling that life
is good. But not so with us in those last days of heavy
drinking. The old pleasures were gone. They were
but memories. Never could we recapture the great
moments of the past. There was an insistent yearning
to enjoy life as we once did and a heartbreaking obsession
that some new miracle of control would enable us
to do it. There was always one more attempt -- and one
more failure.