Today is September 16, 2005 A Great Day for Recovery!
DENIAL
"The worst vice of the fanatic is his sincerity." -- Oscar Wilde
The disease of alcoholism is "cunning, baffling and powerful", and it manipulates us to believe "the lie". There is a point that we reach in our disease where we believe that crazy behavior is acceptable. Insanity becomes the order of the day. And when friends or therapists try to give us a message, we discount them.
How can we break down this wall of denial? Well, there is strength in numbers. If everybody we respect is disagreeing with us, then it is time that we change. If our isolation has become a source of martyrdom, then we need to reorganize our attitude for living. Insanity and isolation are often companions; they feed off each other.
We need always to stay close to our recovering community. Strength and sobriety is in numbers.
God, You gave me the message to become the message. Help me to live it in the recovering community.
Friday, September 16, 2005 A purpose that is you
With a clear and meaningful purpose will come the motivation and the energy to follow that purpose. When you're sure of the what and the why, you'll find everything necessary to handle the how.
Do you have trouble staying motivated, or keeping yourself focused, or following through on your commitments? With a compelling purpose, those troubles disappear.
Are you worried and anxious about how you'll do what you need to do? With a deep sense of purpose, those worries and anxieties give way to valuable, positive ideas and effective action.
There is a purpose, there is a why, that can bring every aspect of your life to higher and higher levels of performance and experience. You've glimpsed that purpose in moments of pure joy, those times when everything in life just seemed to be flowing perfectly.
Dive deep into who you are and connect yourself to a purpose that is uniquely and overwhelmingly you. Seek to know and live a purpose so positive, powerful and compelling that you cannot let go of it.
Already you have seen bits and pieces of that purpose at times, even if somewhat dimly. Just imagine what you could do if you were to include that powerful purpose in every moment.
Imagine it, and then let yourself make it so. Your highest and best purpose is ready to be lived.
-- Ralph Marston
having coffee the other night, ok, this is an honest program...it was kool-aid:), something was said that really struck home with me....
"i don't fear if i go back out that i will die...i fear that i'll keep on living!!, in that misery, just keep on keepin' on."
well, i don't know about you folks but HOLY!!!! that puts keep on keepin' on in recovery first on my plate today
i happened to run into Nic the other day on msn. She sends hellos to everyone, says to keep laughin':) and staying sober. She's been real busy, as she's gotten a newspaper up and running in the last month and hasn't had time to fart! But all is well with her. She says she misses coming here but won't be back unfortunately.
So i'm sending big waves and hugs from Nic
well, as for me....i've had one day off work in the last 10, i finally get a weekend off!!! yeah!
my daughter is going on a trip this weekend. To a 'rave' in winnipeg..if i didn't trust her she wouldn't be going and i think she's in good hands, wondering if my friends here would say a prayer that she and her friends get there safely, stay there safely (and have fun of course:)
and return home safely. The dance is on saturday night...on a full moon!!
ok, i'm going to be ok...i WILL live, so maybe you's could throw her mom, me, into that prayer to, that I make it through the weekend without worrying myself silly!!!
ahem...ok now what was i going to do today?? oh yeah, stay sober
It's a great day to be alive, and the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes,
There's hard times in the neighborhood, but why can't every day be just as good?
There are moments in meditation that zen budhists refer to as "satori". It's a moment that a person feels suddenly acutely aware of everything around them. All of the senses are heightened. They also state it is almost like a drug or alcohol induced high, but you're stone cold sober even though you feel like you are slightly physically levitating or floating. This experience has occurred to many people of various religious persuasions. Most religious "masters" of meditation consider this to be the brief moment when we are the closest having our psyche in the same sphere as the "Power of the universe".
PS. This has happened to me. I don't think I nuts either. Being sober is the only way to achieve this. Ain't being sober great.
PS.PS. Phil is right that not being seen is a good thing. I was always prettier at closing time!
