Hi everyone my name is mary and I am an alcoholic.Latley that's about all I can get out at a meeting,if I go any futher I panic and my mind goes blank.I understand about walking through fear and doing it anyway but really it just does'nt seem to be getting better.I've been sober since 06 and I've shared alot at mettings with no problems,so this is some weird growth thing I'm going through.Has anyone ealse gone through this sort of thing?
Hi everyone my name is mary and I am an alcoholic.Latley that's about all I can get out at a meeting,if I go any futher I panic and my mind goes blank.I understand about walking through fear and doing it anyway but really it just does'nt seem to be getting better.I've been sober since 06 and I've shared alot at mettings with no problems,so this is some weird growth thing I'm going through.Has anyone ealse gone through this sort of thing?
Yeah I went through it, so what I did was raise my hand to be called on to share, and I would share exactly that
My name is Andrew and I am an alcoholic and I am having panic attacks about sharing, and if I don't get this out I will be unable to concentrate since I am just going to be sitting here planning my share and having anxiety about it and not be abletolistentowhatanyonesayssoijustneededtosaythatsothankyouforlettingmesharebye
then I would be able to relax, I did this about 3 times and the fear passed
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it's not the change that's painful, it's the resistance to change that is painful
Hello Mary! I believe we have all felt the anxiety at one time or another.Years ago in Just for Today" I read that 'A SIMPLE HONEST MESSAGE OF RECOVERY FROMADDICTION ALWAYS RINGS TRUE,,Said in that reading .....even though we have been in recovery for awhile it doesn't mean we have became stand up orators,or spiritual guru's or roll on the floor comedians,sharing is not a competitve sport.It is a process of identification and a simple honest message of recovery always rings true..Where I came from ,where I went and where I am now usually carries the message of hope. I alway begin by asking The God of my understanding in to have more of God and less of me and then just let er rip!!!If you share from the heart,something you didn't have to memorize or thats really not whats going on with you it may be be more difficult.Sharing from the heart reaches the heart....Nice talkin with ya!!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Aloha Mary...might also be that the tool of willingness is getting worn out or you have become "tired" of saying it and want to do something else. Maybe...kinda sorta? Good you brought it here and may be willing to look for meaning and solutions. I'm gonna keep listening to this one cause all I can relate to is what I shared...I got tired and I was looking for something else to do and/or say. Considering the probable consequences to the change I went and sat with my sponsor and listened keenly to him tell me what he found out about the subject and how he does it today.
Welcome to the forum, hope you come back and share your ESH here.
I can't say that I have experienced the fear of speaking at meetings, but I have had other types of anxiety occur.
I really liked what Lin shared, maybe that can help.
The things that might help that come to mind would be, volunteering to do the reading (might help to break the ice?), or maybe going to some very small meetings to share until you gain confidence again.
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Rob
"There ain't no Coupe DeVille hiding in the bottom of a Cracker Jack Box."
Bill recovered alcoholic, my self esteem and my pride.would tell me not to post on here. Cause I am not the best speller or. Best writer.for that matter. And my ego sometimes prevents me from getting honest with the fact that some times I don't have an answer or my selfishness will tell me that I am tired of coming to meetings and listening to all you people and your stupid little problems.and if you had my resentments or my problems thaen you would be grateful.and lately I'm the guy who has been grinding and all I can do is keep giving and sacrificing because I want my growth with the god I serve and pray to every day to remove every thing that will block me from you, him and my attitude and my serenity sucks. Willingness openminded and honesty. I am grateful to have this on my smart phone. .but my desk top would be nice to. But internet is a want not a need right now.but I am still willing to get honest.
Without really meaning to I forget that everyone else is there and pretty much just talk to myself. I can never remember what I've said but others tell me it was interesting and my problems seem very solvable afterwards.
