"Do I let other's do all the work at the meeting? Wow! Yes I do, reason being is i have become so comfortable with the ppl in my group that I want to hear them share. They don't cry, like I know I will or half the time my eyes want to pour when I hear a story that hits home. my mouth wants to open but I'm so afraid I will cry even though in my heart they don't care, they love me for me, and would do anything to ease my struggles..yet, I still sit quietly wanting to stand up and yell, I have so much to say...I'm not perfect, I need guidance!! Why do i let this fear run my heart, my mouth, my life? I have such a strong front and I am strong until i break, then I cry alone and talk to my higher power and no one else knows. It's sad but this is who I am. How do I go daily out into the world, to school, to one of my 3 jobs, enjoy my family daily. I am so very happy in my sobriety but I really don't give a great deal back other than showing up and talking before and after meetings. I think it's enough, but is it? Just had to get this of my chest. I am at peace and recovery daily from alcoholism. Thx for listening.