Dear all, I have been having trouble with my account, around a little while so while I have been reading posts, I have been unable to post. I got over my second christmas and it was stressful to say the least but am getting to a meeting tonight as the roads are good now and am feeling antsy to say the least, though I did get a meeting yesterday. I feel I need to catch up as I was housebound for nearly three weeks. I am feeling very emotional as Xmas dinner was difficult with my A father who is unfortunately not in recovery. I really identified with the post that noted that you could recognise an alcoholic easier when they were not drinking, boy so true. I did have to walk on eggshells and it was sad and tough. I am feeling quite resentful now unfortunately so I need to get that out and concentrate on my own recovery. I do like harbouring grudges.
so glad you are here, Maire. and going to a meeting to be with others in recovery is just what will give a boost up when feeling down. this was my first Christmas without my Mom. she passed away in April, and there is a big hole in my life and heart that i will not fill with alcohol. i have been filling it by doing service in my community and have met many wonderful people. some people never had a loving Mom in their life so i am counting my blessings. our family kept busy through the holidays and it passed quickly. no snow to hinder me from going to meetings, and i am looking forward to seein my grandbaby Jan 3rd. she will not have a drunk Grandma if i do whatever it takes to stay sober. have a great new year, jj/sheila
