Congrats on this milestone, we are littermates of a sort, didn't realize it; my six months was last week. I dunno about you-feels great to me. Hey I didn't post on the other thread, wanted to say that I sympathize about the relationship stuff. Being in relationship with my husband is THE hardest part about being a developing, sober person. It's a challenge to realize that I am changing and I can't expect others around me to be changing with me at the same pace or at all, tho I wish it dearly. I have found that with time, if I change the way I act, the dynamic shifts, although I tend to focus on the negative specifically in my marriage. Well, I hope you had a joyous day today, angela
IHi every brother and sister and thank you! Nice haiku, LinBaba!
Experience - It's been a more beautiful nightmare and a more frightening celebration of life than I could ever imagine. When the obsession is upon me I remember that My God is bigger. My God is stronger. My God will walk me if I let It. Favorite AA motto: Man takes drink...drink takes drink...drink takes man.
Strength - My God is my strength. If it be God's will, I ask for the strength to surrender, I ask for knowledge of my ignorance. I ask God to show me what I'm ready to see an tell me what I'm ready to hear. Thy will, not mine, be done. I just have to stay away from that first drink.
Hope - I have no hope in the shape of wishes. I have no wishes and that means I am free from disappointment. Instead of wishes I have faith based upon knowledge of the past. The experience of others who struggled has shown me the truth of their strength. Up to this point, everything has turned out perfectly. Exactly the way it was supposed to. Tomorrow will be the same. Others who struggle are invited to learn from my journey. If that is "hope", then that is what I have.
This is my 1000th posting in almost a year and a half. I want to use it to say thank you to all of you. I may not like you all and you may not like me, but I LOVE each and every one of you as only one of Us can! This fellowship, this program and this journey has knocked away layers of pain, shame, sin. filth and guilt to reveal a man ready to live. Ready to win. Ready to fail. Ready to accept the grace of God and serve. I am grateful today and ready for another 24 hours.
