i dreamed i had had enough alcohol to enter 'wet brain' territory. it was at a former neighbor's house, a party house, and i had 'one drink' and was falling down drunk. i realized i had crossed over the ultimate barrier and entered where no one wants to go. i had so much THIQ in my brain that there was no undoing it, i would remain a drunk without drinking any more alcohol. my liver and brain were saturated. i woke up with a very bad headache, similar to a hangover. i know God heals people, but yesterday having a drink crossed my mind, very briefly, and i told my committee it was not an option for me any more. i guess my brain decided i should be reminded of what was in store for me if i did take that one drink. what i have written here and dreamt is not "flawless" but it was the first dream that scared me this badly..... and to give soul deep prayers of thanks that it was only a dream, it was also a reminder that i am an alcoholic whether i drink or not and it is by God's grace and mercy that i do not have to take a drink today. jj
Thanks for the memory jj...good old subconscious doing "play back". I've had some very unbelieveable reactions to drinking dreams mostly because I know I wasn't but the dream told me I just had with all the color and noise and people and glasses etc. I always get an appreciation on how my I had invested in the drinking days.
Hope you have a better night tonight without the reward of a hangover. (((hugs)))
I would actually suggest not taking it too seriously. People tend to put a lot of stock in dreams but it's really just the mind's way of processing information from the day. Sometimes it's pleasant, sometimes not.
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With addictive disorders, it is not even so much a form of "processing", as it is actually a physiological brain-blip in the neurotransmitter transmissions that provokes the acute realism-they don't "mean" anything relative to the actual quality of our sobriety/recovery--except to remind us that we are indeed infused with the disease of alcoholism, which is still perkin' along to some degree within us, even when it is solidly in remission--that's why we must keep eternal vigilence and not get complacent.
Weird drinking dreams last night: you and me both. I had a bizarre one, pretty scary in so far as it felt like what it was like to be on the booze again. Was really glad to wake up sober! :)
Not putting too much stock into it though, kind of like what zz is saying. I'm certainly not going to drink on it today.
