"Abandon yourself to God as you understand God..." is one of the assists I did with my mom as she fit your stated paradox. Worked at it a bit with my Mom and she came to relax like you see when a person surrenders.
hi Wayne, when i am not the person feeling the feelings, it is hard to figure out what to do or say. Jerry hit it on the nose.... abandon yourself to your HP, be the prayerer, and be patient. do the next right thing you think of and love, love, love. the pain you feel is your growth. hugs jj/sheila
Seems much of life is paradoxical...we hurt, we heal, we love, we hate, nuthin' easy about it, huh? Prayer and more prayer, even when I despair of prayer, still helps.