Over the past several weeks it's starting to look like my son may have asthma. He's been put on a few meds, but things aren't a whole lot better. Growing up with severe asthma myself, it breaks my heart that he may suffer from it too. I know the panic of not being able to breath, and the feeling of helplessness that goes along with it. He has an appointment at the doc in a little while to possibly set up an appointment for allergy tests (something I've been through twice). I can feel some of the insanity creeping back in, like trying to make deals with God (please let me be the one to suffer in his place) and feeling responsible for him having it. I know, that's all crazy stuff, and I need to place my faith and trust in God, but it's still hard. In my meditation last night God reminded me that although he is my son, he is REALLY Gods child, and that God takes care of his children. Still, I want to make it all go away for him.
Please remember him (and maybe me too) in your prayers today. I've seen and experienced God doing awesome things, and miracles do happen. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you all so much. The doctor visit was typical. She added an antibiotic (why, I have NO idea) and steroids. Bad stuff for anyone, let alone a 5 year old. Now it's a struggle between the insurance company and the pharmacy to get it filled and paid for. Were talking less than $20.00 for the scripts, but the pharmacy already ran it through insurance so we have to wait for everyone to authorize everyone else to authorize someone to fax a form to do something so we can get his meds. They told us we should be able to pick them up by TOMORROW EVENING???WTF??? In my mind this has got to be one of the most asinine ridiculous things I've ever experienced. In the mean time, my son still struggles to breath and keeps saying he's scared he's gonna die.
God, grant me the serenity............
Brian
-- Edited by Reffner on Thursday 9th of September 2010 01:57:36 PM
I am so sorry your son and your family is going through this... if they are not sure it is asthma and begin tests for allergies... ask about gluten allergies... as a person in R&D in the food industry gluten allergies are becoming more common place.
After two years of testing my step-daughter for different things, with allergies and possibly asthma - it ended up being she had a reaction to gluten...
In my thoughts and prayers Dave
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Ref...You got the prayers for you and your son. Your understanding is wide and that is an asset also for your son. You have experience and understanding and solutions what better man to be there to assist HP as the supervisor. You can share how you work acceptance in all your affairs as HP works within the MDs. I never had a Dad in recovery or another male family matter for that matter (anyone's that stayed that is) and I know how valueable it would have been. I accept that. So your son has a supportive Serenity and 3rd Step Prayer from the Pacific. (((((hugs)))))
You and your son are in my thoughts and prayers. Just to give you some hope, my son was asthmatic but he outgrew it. It's tough though, and I can relate to the helplessness that you must feel.
Hang in there Ref! You know for a fact God is with you and your Son. From the boards, I know your spiritual side is fullfilled. I am so sorry the insurance side of this is so horrible! Prayers sent! Tom
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Thank you all for your prayers and support. We're STILL waiting for the doc, pharmacy, and insurance company to get their $hit straight so we can get the scripts he needs. Last night was rough on him, and we almost went to the ER. We've decided that one more episode and he's going to the ER. I know how seriously fast things can decline with asthma, and I'm done screwing around with the red tape over $16.47 worth of meds. So we'll let the insurance pay for an ER visit instead of 2 scripts. Might even throw in an ambulance ride on top just to get their attention. If it sounds like I have a little resentment, you are right. No worries though, I know when enough is enough, and there's no point in adding alcohol to the mix to make things worse. I guess I question how much do I "put up with" until I'm allowed to get pissed off. I know, for me there's no such thing as justifiable anger, but I'm only human. I can't change anything but me, but that doesn't mean I can't at least try and make a difference right? Or is that stinking thinking? I guess now I'm just ranting, but I'm tired of crying over my son's suffering when the solution is so close, but sooooo far away.
Thanks again for all your prayers and support. I know I have found loving, caring friends here who really do care. I wish I could give you all a great big hug, but I guess this will have to do...((((((((((MIP))))))))))!
Brian
-- Edited by Reffner on Friday 10th of September 2010 12:00:20 PM
Well, we finally got his meds at 5:00 tonight. There's a definite improvement from 5 hours ago, and I think we will all get a better nights sleep. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers. Went to my home group meeting tonight and talked about things there. People shared some of their experiences with similar circumstances, and it helped to know that I'm not the only one who feels like this. There were a few there who shared worse experiences than I had, and I couldn't help but be grateful. Tomorrow's another day, and the problems will (hopefully) continue to sort themselves out if I let God continue to help me through them. I guess I can look at this as another battle won in the war of life. Thanks again for the support. I really love you guys!!!
Larry, ----------------------- Do not fear what may happen tomorrow. The same loving Father who cares for you today will care for you tomorrow and everyday. Either he will shield you from suffering or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it. Be at peace then and put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginings.
Connor had a pretty good weekend. The meds are working good, and he's finally able to sleep good at night. On the other hand, after a 4 day weekend he wasn't ready to go back to school. It was a little rough this morning, but he ended up having a great day. Thank you all agin for your prayers and support.
Oh! (((Brian,))) I am so pleased things are easing. Big hug and love and prayers to you and Connor! He is blessed to have such a lovely caring Dad! Louisa xx