Was just writing this out to Rob, and decided to make a Post out of it....
Those side effects that we almost unbearable, have now gone away and my heart is now beating a good healthy beat....so the medication from hell, as I wrote a few days ago, well can I change that to this AWESOME life saving medication.....
Gratitude replacing fear...
after some time in this Program, still have a little side of me that is toooo dumb to admit but I will admit it.....when I was so freaked out, my thoughts were keep it to yourself, dont go posting anymore of your problems on MIP....which of course meant isolation from others....
Gotta ask do we ever get better in some areas, on this one, I dont have an answer, I just know that when the last thing I should do is isolate, what do I do, Isolate.....
Well thats just me and My HP....so not alone really, but human contact is so important......like the face to face people I saw today as well......
Rambing sort of, well now you know thats the side that lets you know I am really back, lol....
Love to all, and thank you all for helping me with sending your love my way, I could Feeeeeeeeeeeeel It, truth.
"Gotta ask do we ever get better in some areas, on this one, I dont have an answer, I just know that when the last thing I should do is isolate, what do I do, Isolate....." From my experience, yes we do and it's always progress not perfection. Sometimes the best I do in the middle of the forrest to find out where I'm at is stop, be still, look down at my feet to decide where I'm at and then look straight up above me and ask "where do you want me?" Haven't been really lost for a long time.
if you can't see the forest for the trees.... get a chainsaw and let 'er rip......
(kidding)
:o)
Glad you are feeling better and more upbeat and back to the Toni I know and love!! What you have had to go through lately just sucks. I know it has been hard with all this. But I believe that the Power of Prayer is real, and I know that your relationship with your HP is strong and runs deep... and it is a great example you show in all things, that EVERYTHING gets better with God's help. Everything. You show it to me and others here over and over, and you do it with grace, courage and real solid sobriety. You are LOVED!!!!!!! And you ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love, Joni baloni
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.